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<\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\u201eP\u0159ed\u201c bylo v\u0161echno, co jsem znal. Rann\u00ed rutiny, kter\u00e9 se opakovaly s uklid\u0148uj\u00edc\u00ed p\u0159esnost\u00ed. Tv\u00e1\u0159e lid\u00ed, kter\u00e9 jsem v\u00eddal tak \u010dasto, \u017ee jsem je p\u0159estal vn\u00edmat jako jednotlivce a za\u010dal je br\u00e1t jako sou\u010d\u00e1st pozad\u00ed m\u00e9ho \u017eivota. Pr\u00e1ce, kter\u00e1 m\u011b sice nevy\u010derp\u00e1vala, ale ani nenapl\u0148ovala. A pocit, \u017ee a\u0165 se stane cokoliv, sv\u011bt z\u016fstane v podstat\u011b stejn\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00fdlil jsem se.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V\u0161echno za\u010dalo nen\u00e1padn\u011b. V\u011bcmi, kter\u00e9 by si \u010dlov\u011bk norm\u00e1ln\u011b ani nezapamatoval. Zpo\u017ed\u011bn\u00fd telefon\u00e1t. Zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed t\u00f3n v hlase n\u011bkoho bl\u00edzk\u00e9ho. Kr\u00e1tk\u00e1 pauza, kter\u00e1 trvala o vte\u0159inu d\u00e9le, ne\u017e m\u011bla. Pr\u00e1v\u011b tyhle drobnosti, kter\u00e9 mozek obvykle ignoruje, proto\u017ee by jinak musel neust\u00e1le pochybovat o realit\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ale pak p\u0159i\u0161el ten den.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pamatuji si ho p\u0159esn\u011b, i kdy\u017e bych si p\u0159\u00e1l, abych ne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nebyl na n\u011bm nic dramatick\u00e9ho. \u017d\u00e1dn\u00e9 bou\u0159ky, \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9 varovn\u00e9 sign\u00e1ly na obloze, \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e1 hudba, kter\u00e1 by nazna\u010dovala, \u017ee se bl\u00ed\u017e\u00ed zm\u011bna. Jen oby\u010dejn\u00e9 r\u00e1no. K\u00e1va, kter\u00e1 chutnala stejn\u011b jako v\u017edy. Kl\u00ed\u010de, kter\u00e9 jsem vzal ze stolu automaticky. Dve\u0159e, kter\u00e9 jsem za sebou zav\u0159el bez p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161len\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A p\u0159esto to byl okam\u017eik, kdy se v\u0161echno za\u010dalo posouvat jinam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zpr\u00e1va p\u0159i\u0161la v dob\u011b, kdy jsem na ni nebyl p\u0159ipraven\u00fd. Ale existuje v\u016fbec n\u011bkdy chv\u00edle, kdy je \u010dlov\u011bk na n\u011bco takov\u00e9ho p\u0159ipraven\u00fd? Slova na displeji byla kr\u00e1tk\u00e1, \u00fa\u0159edn\u00ed, chladn\u00e1. Takov\u00e1, kter\u00e1 se sna\u017e\u00ed skr\u00fdt v\u00fdznam, ale ve skute\u010dnosti ho jen zhor\u0161uj\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nejd\u0159\u00edv jsem jim nerozum\u011bl.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pak jsem jim odm\u00edtal uv\u011b\u0159it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A nakonec jsem je pochopil a\u017e p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 dob\u0159e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V tu chv\u00edli se sv\u011bt nezastavil. To je d\u016fle\u017eit\u00e9 \u0159\u00edct. Lid\u00e9 kolem m\u011b pokra\u010dovali v ch\u016fzi, auta jezdila d\u00e1l, n\u011bkdo se sm\u00e1l na druh\u00e9 stran\u011b ulice. Jen j\u00e1 jsem st\u00e1l a m\u011bl pocit, \u017ee se v\u0161echno zpomalilo do hust\u00e9, neprostupn\u00e9 hmoty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pamatuji si zvuk vlastn\u00edho dechu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A pak ticho, kter\u00e9 n\u00e1sledovalo uvnit\u0159 m\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ePo\u201c neza\u010dalo okam\u017eit\u011b. Nep\u0159i\u0161lo jako nov\u00fd \u017eivot, ale sp\u00ed\u0161 jako postupn\u00e9 vypr\u00e1zdn\u011bn\u00ed toho star\u00e9ho. Dny m\u011bly stejn\u00fd tvar, ale ztratily obsah. R\u00e1no u\u017e nebylo za\u010d\u00e1tkem, jen pokra\u010dov\u00e1n\u00edm n\u011b\u010deho, co ned\u00e1valo smysl. Ve\u010der nebyl koncem, jen dal\u0161\u00edm krokem do pr\u00e1zdna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lid\u00e9 mi \u0159\u00edkali, \u017ee \u010das pom\u016f\u017ee.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mo\u017en\u00e1 m\u011bl. Ale ne tak, jak si p\u0159edstavovali.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u010cas neuzdravuje v\u0161echno. Sp\u00ed\u0161 \u010dlov\u011bka nau\u010d\u00ed \u017e\u00edt vedle bolesti, kter\u00e1 se stane sou\u010d\u00e1st\u00ed jeho identity. Jako st\u00edn, kter\u00fd nezmiz\u00ed, i kdy\u017e se oto\u010d\u00edte ke sv\u011btlu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Byly dny, kdy jsem fungoval norm\u00e1ln\u011b. Pracoval jsem, mluvil s lidmi, dokonce jsem se ob\u010das usm\u00e1l. A pak byly noci, kdy se v\u0161echno vracelo zp\u011bt. Bez varov\u00e1n\u00ed, bez logiky. Jen \u010dist\u00e1, nekompromisn\u00ed p\u0159\u00edtomnost toho, co se stalo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nejhor\u0161\u00ed nebyla bolest samotn\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ale rozd\u00edl mezi t\u00edm, co bylo p\u0159edt\u00edm, a t\u00edm, co u\u017e nikdy nebude.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jednoho ve\u010dera jsem sed\u011bl doma a d\u00edval se na v\u011bci, kter\u00e9 z\u016fstaly stejn\u00e9. K\u0159eslo u okna. \u0160\u00e1lek na poli\u010dce. Kniha, kterou jsem nikdy nedo\u010detl. A uv\u011bdomil jsem si, \u017ee nic z toho se nezm\u011bnilo \u2014 jen j\u00e1 jsem se zm\u011bnil natolik, \u017ee to v\u0161echno p\u016fsobilo cize.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
To byl moment, kdy jsem pochopil, co znamen\u00e1 \u201epo\u201c.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne jako nov\u00fd za\u010d\u00e1tek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ale jako pokra\u010dov\u00e1n\u00ed bez n\u00e1vratu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Od t\u00e9 doby \u017eiju mezi t\u011bmito dv\u011bma \u010d\u00e1stmi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eP\u0159ed\u201c u\u017e ke mn\u011b nepat\u0159\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ePo\u201c je v\u0161echno, co m\u00e1m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A mezi nimi je jen tenk\u00e1 hranice vzpom\u00ednek, kter\u00e1 se ka\u017ed\u00fd den trochu v\u00edc rozmaz\u00e1v\u00e1, ale nikdy \u00fapln\u011b nezmiz\u00ed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Bylo mi \u010dty\u0159ia\u010dty\u0159icet let, kdy\u017e se m\u016fj \u017eivot rozlomil na dv\u011b \u010d\u00e1sti. Ne obrazn\u011b, jak se to n\u011bkdy \u0159\u00edk\u00e1 v p\u0159ehnan\u00fdch metafor\u00e1ch, ale \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":5270,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5269","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":3,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5269","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5269"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5269\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5271,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5269\/revisions\/5271"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/5270"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5269"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5269"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5269"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}