{"id":4841,"date":"2026-04-07T14:50:17","date_gmt":"2026-04-07T13:50:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=4841"},"modified":"2026-04-07T14:50:17","modified_gmt":"2026-04-07T13:50:17","slug":"neutesovala-jsem-naomi-prazdnymi-slovy-nerikala-jsem-ji-zapomen-na-to-nebo-cas-vsechno-zahoji","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=4841","title":{"rendered":"Neut\u011b\u0161ovala jsem Naomi pr\u00e1zdn\u00fdmi slovy. Ne\u0159\u00edkala jsem j\u00ed: \u201eZapome\u0148 na to,\u201c nebo \u201e\u010das v\u0161echno zahoj\u00ed.\u201c"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Sed\u011bla naproti mn\u011b na pohovce, shrben\u00e1, s rukama pevn\u011b sev\u0159en\u00fdma v kl\u00edn\u011b, jako by se sna\u017eila udr\u017eet pohromad\u011b. Jej\u00ed o\u010di byly zarudl\u00e9, ale u\u017e neplakala. To bylo mo\u017en\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b hor\u0161\u00ed. Slzy n\u011bkdy p\u0159in\u00e1\u0161ej\u00ed \u00falevu. Ticho po nich b\u00fdv\u00e1 t\u011b\u017e\u0161\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"819\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/image-22.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4842\" srcset=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/image-22.png 819w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/image-22-240x300.png 240w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/image-22-768x960.png 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 819px) 100vw, 819px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Znaly jsme se roky. Naomi byla v\u017edycky siln\u00e1. Ta, kter\u00e1 dr\u017eela ostatn\u00ed nad vodou, kter\u00e1 nach\u00e1zela spr\u00e1vn\u00e1 slova, kdy\u017e nikdo jin\u00fd nev\u011bd\u011bl, co \u0159\u00edct. A te\u010f sed\u011bla p\u0159ede mnou zlomen\u00e1 tak, jak jsem ji nikdy p\u0159edt\u00edm nevid\u011bla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eNev\u00edm, co m\u00e1m d\u011blat,\u201c za\u0161eptala nakonec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nadechla jsem se, ale \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e1 nau\u010den\u00e1 fr\u00e1ze nep\u0159i\u0161la. A ani jsem ji nehledala. V\u011bd\u011bla jsem, \u017ee by to bylo zbyte\u010dn\u00e9. N\u011bkter\u00e9 bolesti se nedaj\u00ed zmen\u0161it v\u011btou, kter\u00e1 zn\u00ed hezky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eTak ned\u011blej nic,\u201c odpov\u011bd\u011bla jsem klidn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zvedla ke mn\u011b o\u010di, p\u0159ekvapen\u00e1. \u201eCo\u017ee?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eNemus\u00ed\u0161 m\u00edt hned pl\u00e1n. Nemus\u00ed\u0161 v\u011bd\u011bt, jak to spravit. Nemus\u00ed\u0161 b\u00fdt siln\u00e1 dneska.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Chv\u00edli na m\u011b jen hled\u011bla, jako by se sna\u017eila pochopit, jestli to mysl\u00edm v\u00e1\u017en\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eV\u0161ichni mi \u0159\u00edkaj\u00ed, \u017ee to p\u0159ejde,\u201c \u0159ekla ti\u0161e. \u201e\u017de to chce \u010das. \u017de se m\u00e1m soust\u0159edit na sebe.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pokr\u010dila jsem rameny. \u201eMo\u017en\u00e1 maj\u00ed pravdu. Ale to ti te\u010f nepom\u016f\u017ee.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Naomi sklopila pohled. \u201eBol\u00ed to,\u201c p\u0159iznala.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eJ\u00e1 v\u00edm.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201ePo\u0159\u00e1d dokola si to p\u0159ehr\u00e1v\u00e1m v hlav\u011b. Co jsem mohla ud\u011blat jinak. Kde jsem ud\u011blala chybu.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Naklonila jsem se k n\u00ed o n\u011bco bl\u00ed\u017e. \u201eA napadlo t\u011b n\u011bkdy, \u017ee to mo\u017en\u00e1 nen\u00ed tvoje chyba?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ho\u0159ce se pousm\u00e1la. \u201eTo \u0159\u00edkaj\u00ed v\u0161ichni.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eJ\u00e1 to ne\u0159\u00edk\u00e1m jen proto, abys se c\u00edtila l\u00edp,\u201c odpov\u011bd\u011bla jsem. \u201e\u0158\u00edk\u00e1m to proto, \u017ee ne v\u0161echno se d\u00e1 kontrolovat. N\u011bkdy lid\u00e9 odejdou, l\u017eou nebo zrad\u00ed\u2026 a nen\u00ed to odraz toho, kdo jsi ty.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dlouho ml\u010dela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pak si promnula ruce a zhluboka se nadechla. \u201eM\u00e1m pocit, \u017ee jsem ztratila kus sebe.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eMo\u017en\u00e1 ano,\u201c p\u0159ik\u00fdvla jsem. \u201eAle to neznamen\u00e1, \u017ee ho nem\u016f\u017ee\u0161 znovu naj\u00edt. Jen to nebude hned.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Naomi zav\u0159ela o\u010di. \u201eJ\u00e1 nechci sly\u0161et, \u017ee to bude dobr\u00e9,\u201c \u0159ekla najednou. \u201eProto\u017ee tomu nev\u011b\u0159\u00edm.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eTak to nebudu \u0159\u00edkat,\u201c odpov\u011bd\u011bla jsem prost\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Otev\u0159ela o\u010di a pod\u00edvala se na m\u011b jinak. Poprv\u00e9 za cel\u00fd ve\u010der v jej\u00edm pohledu nebyla jen bolest, ale i n\u011bco jako \u00faleva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eTak co mi \u0159ekne\u0161?\u201c zeptala se.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Chv\u00edli jsem p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lela. Ne proto, \u017ee bych nev\u011bd\u011bla, ale proto, \u017ee jsem cht\u011bla b\u00fdt up\u0159\u00edmn\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201e\u0158eknu ti, \u017ee to bude t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9,\u201c za\u010dala jsem pomalu. \u201e\u017de budou dny, kdy se r\u00e1no probud\u00ed\u0161 a bude to bolet stejn\u011b jako dnes. Mo\u017en\u00e1 i v\u00edc. A \u017ee n\u011bkdy bude\u0161 m\u00edt chu\u0165 to vzd\u00e1t.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Polkla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eAle taky ti \u0159eknu, \u017ee to zvl\u00e1dne\u0161 p\u0159e\u017e\u00edt. Ne proto, \u017ee jsi siln\u00e1 po\u0159\u00e1d, ale proto, \u017ee i kdy\u017e slabne\u0161, po\u0159\u00e1d jde\u0161 d\u00e1l.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Naomi si p\u0159it\u00e1hla nohy bl\u00ed\u017e k sob\u011b a op\u0159ela si bradu o kolena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eA co kdy\u017e nechci b\u00fdt siln\u00e1?\u201c zeptala se ti\u0161e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Usm\u00e1la jsem se jemn\u011b. \u201eTak nebu\u010f. Aspo\u0148 ne te\u010f. Te\u010f m\u016f\u017ee\u0161 b\u00fdt jen unaven\u00e1. Zran\u011bn\u00e1. Na\u0161tvan\u00e1. V\u0161echno najednou.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ticho mezi n\u00e1mi u\u017e nebylo tak t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9 jako p\u0159edt\u00edm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eZ\u016fstane\u0161 tu se mnou?\u201c zeptala se po chv\u00edli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eAno,\u201c odpov\u011bd\u011bla jsem bez v\u00e1h\u00e1n\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A tak jsme tam sed\u011bly. Bez velk\u00fdch slov, bez pr\u00e1zdn\u00fdch rad. Jen dv\u011b \u017eeny v tichu, kter\u00e9 tentokr\u00e1t nel\u00e9\u010dilo t\u00edm, \u017ee by n\u011bco slibovalo \u2014 ale t\u00edm, \u017ee nic nep\u0159edst\u00edralo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A mo\u017en\u00e1 pr\u00e1v\u011b to Naomi pot\u0159ebovala nejv\u00edc.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Sed\u011bla naproti mn\u011b na pohovce, shrben\u00e1, s rukama pevn\u011b sev\u0159en\u00fdma v kl\u00edn\u011b, jako by se sna\u017eila udr\u017eet pohromad\u011b. 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