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<\/figure>\n\n\n\nAle j\u00e1 jsem si ho v\u0161imla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nejd\u0159\u00edv jen koutkem oka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u016fj ze\u0165 sed\u011bl naproti mn\u011b a ob\u010das se na m\u011b pod\u00edval. Nebylo na tom nic zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00edho \u2014 lid\u00e9 se na sebe b\u011bhem konverzace d\u00edvaj\u00ed. Jen\u017ee jeho pohled trval o n\u011bco d\u00e9le, ne\u017e by bylo b\u011b\u017en\u00e9. Nebyl nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u00fd\u2026 ale byl zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zpo\u010d\u00e1tku jsem tomu nev\u011bnovala pozornost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jen\u017ee p\u0159i dal\u0161\u00ed ve\u010de\u0159i se to opakovalo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A pak znovu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Za\u010dala jsem si toho v\u0161\u00edmat v\u00edc. Kdykoliv jsem se zvedla pro vodu, kdy\u017e jsem mluvila, dokonce i kdy\u017e jsem jen ti\u0161e sed\u011bla \u2014 jeho pohled se ke mn\u011b vracel. Ne po\u0159\u00e1d, ne nep\u0159etr\u017eit\u011b. Ale dost \u010dasto na to, aby to ve mn\u011b vyvolalo ot\u00e1zky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sna\u017eila jsem se naj\u00edt vysv\u011btlen\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mo\u017en\u00e1 je jen zamy\u0161len\u00fd. Mo\u017en\u00e1 se d\u00edv\u00e1 skrz m\u011b, ani\u017e by si to uv\u011bdomoval. Mo\u017en\u00e1 si to jen namlouv\u00e1m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ale ten pocit nezmizel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Naopak s\u00edlil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Za\u010dala jsem se c\u00edtit nesv\u00e1. Ne p\u0159\u00edmo ohro\u017een\u011b, ale nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u011b sledovan\u00e1. Bylo to zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed \u2014 sed\u011bla jsem mezi vlastn\u00ed rodinou, v bezpe\u010dn\u00e9m prost\u0159ed\u00ed, a p\u0159esto ve mn\u011b rostlo nap\u011bt\u00ed, kter\u00e9 jsem nedok\u00e1zala p\u0159esn\u011b pojmenovat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jednou ve\u010der jsem to u\u017e nevydr\u017eela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Byla to oby\u010dejn\u00e1 ve\u010de\u0159e jako ka\u017ed\u00e1 jin\u00e1. Sm\u00edch, rozhovory, zvuk p\u0159\u00edbor\u016f. A pak p\u0159i\u0161el ten moment \u2014 zvedla jsem o\u010di a on se na m\u011b znovu d\u00edval.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tentokr\u00e1t jsem pohled neuhla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Z\u016fstali jsme na sebe hled\u011bt o vte\u0159inu d\u00e9le, ne\u017e bylo p\u0159\u00edjemn\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A pak jsem se zeptala.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ePro\u010d se na m\u011b po\u0159\u00e1d d\u00edv\u00e1\u0161?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
U stolu nastalo ticho.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne \u00fapln\u00e9, ale dostate\u010dn\u00e9 na to, aby si toho v\u0161imli i ostatn\u00ed. N\u011bkte\u0159\u00ed zvedli hlavu, jin\u00ed ztichli uprost\u0159ed v\u011bty. V\u0161ichni \u010dekali.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On se na okam\u017eik zarazil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jako by ne\u010dekal, \u017ee to \u0159eknu nahlas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pak se m\u00edrn\u011b usm\u00e1l \u2014 ale nebyl to vesel\u00fd \u00fasm\u011bv. Sp\u00ed\u0161 unaven\u00fd. Zamyslel se, ne\u017e odpov\u011bd\u011bl.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eProto\u017ee mi n\u011bkoho p\u0159ipom\u00edn\u00e1\u0161.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ta odpov\u011b\u010f m\u011b p\u0159ekvapila.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nap\u011bt\u00ed trochu polevilo, ale zv\u011bdavost z\u016fstala.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eKoho?\u201c zeptala jsem se.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chv\u00edli ml\u010del.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A pak \u0159ekl n\u011bco, co zm\u011bnilo v\u0161echno.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eMou m\u00e1mu.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V tu chv\u00edli se atmosf\u00e9ra u stolu \u00fapln\u011b zm\u011bnila.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nikdo nic ne\u0159ekl, ale bylo c\u00edtit, \u017ee ta slova maj\u00ed v\u00e1hu. Pod\u00edvala jsem se na n\u011bj jinak. Jeho pohled u\u017e nep\u016fsobil zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u011b \u2014 p\u016fsobil smutn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eOna\u2026\u201c za\u010dal, ale na chv\u00edli se odml\u010del. \u201eZem\u0159ela p\u0159ed p\u00e1r lety.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Najednou mi do\u0161lo, \u017ee jsem o tom nikdy nesly\u0161ela. Nebo mo\u017en\u00e1 ano, jen jsem tomu nep\u0159ikl\u00e1dala v\u00fdznam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eM\u011bla stejn\u00fd zp\u016fsob, jak\u00fdm se d\u00edv\u00e1\u0161, kdy\u017e poslouch\u00e1\u0161 ostatn\u00ed,\u201c pokra\u010doval ti\u0161e. \u201eA taky si v\u017edycky hr\u00e1la s prstenem, kdy\u017e byla nerv\u00f3zn\u00ed.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Instinktivn\u011b jsem se pod\u00edvala na svou ruku.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u011bl pravdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ani jsem si neuv\u011bdomovala, \u017ee to d\u011bl\u00e1m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eN\u011bkdy\u2026\u201c \u0159ekl a jeho hlas se trochu zachv\u011bl, \u201en\u011bkdy m\u00e1m pocit, jako by na chv\u00edli byla zp\u00e1tky.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nev\u011bd\u011bla jsem, co \u0159\u00edct.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V\u0161echny ty ve\u010dery, v\u0161echny ty pohledy, kter\u00e9 mi p\u0159ipadaly nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u00e9, najednou dostaly \u00fapln\u011b jin\u00fd v\u00fdznam. Nebyly o mn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Byly o jeho vzpom\u00ednk\u00e1ch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O n\u011bkom, koho ztratil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O n\u011b\u010dem, co se sna\u017eil znovu naj\u00edt \u2014 alespo\u0148 na okam\u017eik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nap\u011bt\u00ed, kter\u00e9 jsem c\u00edtila, se rozplynulo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nahradil ho zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed klid\u2026 a z\u00e1rove\u0148 smutek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ePromi\u0148,\u201c \u0159ekl nakonec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zavrt\u011bla jsem hlavou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eNemus\u00ed\u0161,\u201c odpov\u011bd\u011bla jsem ti\u0161e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Od t\u00e9 doby se na m\u011b ob\u010das pod\u00edv\u00e1 stejn\u011b jako d\u0159\u00edv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ale u\u017e v tom nevid\u00edm nic znepokojiv\u00e9ho.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vid\u00edm v tom p\u0159\u00edb\u011bh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A p\u0159ipom\u00ednku toho, jak m\u00e1lo n\u011bkdy v\u00edme o d\u016fvodech, kter\u00e9 se skr\u00fdvaj\u00ed za chov\u00e1n\u00edm druh\u00fdch.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Za\u010dalo to nen\u00e1padn\u011b. Rodinn\u00e9 ve\u010de\u0159e u n\u00e1s byly v\u017edycky hlu\u010dn\u00e9, pln\u00e9 sm\u00edchu, p\u0159eru\u0161ovan\u00fdch v\u011bt a rozhovor\u016f, kter\u00e9 se prol\u00ednaly jeden p\u0159es druh\u00fd. D\u011bti \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4764,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4763","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":321,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4763","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4763"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4763\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4765,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4763\/revisions\/4765"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4764"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4763"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4763"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4763"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}