{"id":4325,"date":"2026-03-03T19:55:27","date_gmt":"2026-03-03T19:55:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=4325"},"modified":"2026-03-03T19:55:27","modified_gmt":"2026-03-03T19:55:27","slug":"dnes-jsem-oslavil-sve-97-narozeniny-plamen-svicky-se-tise-chvel-v-pruvanu-maleho-pokoje-jako-by-si-ani-on-nebyl-jisty-zda-ma-jeste-smysl-horet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=4325","title":{"rendered":"Dnes jsem oslavil sv\u00e9 97. narozeniny. Plamen sv\u00ed\u010dky se ti\u0161e chv\u011bl v pr\u016fvanu mal\u00e9ho pokoje, jako by si ani on nebyl jist\u00fd, zda m\u00e1 je\u0161t\u011b smysl ho\u0159et."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Sed\u011bl jsem u mal\u00e9ho stolu u okna a d\u00edval se na ten neklidn\u00fd plam\u00ednek. Dort byl oby\u010dejn\u00fd, koupen\u00fd v m\u00edstn\u00ed pek\u00e1rn\u011b. Sestra z pe\u010dovatelsk\u00e9ho domu mi ho p\u0159inesla po ob\u011bd\u011b a pop\u0159\u00e1la mi pevn\u00e9 zdrav\u00ed. Usm\u00e1l jsem se. V m\u00e9m v\u011bku u\u017e je to p\u0159\u00e1n\u00ed sp\u00ed\u0161 zdvo\u0159ilost ne\u017e pl\u00e1n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"710\" src=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-34.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4327\" srcset=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-34.png 1024w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-34-300x208.png 300w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-34-768x533.png 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Devades\u00e1t sedm let. Kdy\u017e jsem byl chlapec, p\u0159ipadali mi devades\u00e1tn\u00edci jako bytosti z jin\u00e9ho sv\u011bta. Sta\u0159\u00ed, pomal\u00ed, t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 pr\u016fhledn\u00ed. A te\u010f jsem t\u00edm sv\u011btem j\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pokoj je mal\u00fd, ale uklizen\u00fd. Na komod\u011b stoj\u00ed n\u011bkolik fotografi\u00ed. \u010cernob\u00edl\u00e9 sn\u00edmky rodi\u010d\u016f, svatebn\u00ed portr\u00e9t s mou \u017eenou, obr\u00e1zek m\u00fdch dvou dcer, kdy\u017e byly je\u0161t\u011b mal\u00e9 a dr\u017eely se za ruce. V\u0161echny ty okam\u017eiky jsou zmrazen\u00e9 v \u010dase, zat\u00edmco j\u00e1 jsem pokra\u010doval d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Moje \u017eena ode\u0161la p\u0159ed dvan\u00e1cti lety. Tich\u00fd odchod ve sp\u00e1nku, bez dramatu. Dr\u017eel jsem ji za ruku do posledn\u00ed chv\u00edle. Od t\u00e9 doby je noc del\u0161\u00ed a r\u00e1na ti\u0161\u0161\u00ed. Nau\u010dil jsem se mluvit s jej\u00ed fotografi\u00ed. Ne proto, \u017ee bych si myslel, \u017ee odpov\u00ed, ale proto, \u017ee n\u011bkter\u00e9 my\u0161lenky pot\u0159ebuj\u00ed b\u00fdt vysloveny nahlas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dcery \u017eij\u00ed daleko. Maj\u00ed sv\u00e9 rodiny, sv\u00e9 starosti. Volaj\u00ed mi, kdy\u017e mohou. Vnuci mi ob\u010das po\u0161lou zpr\u00e1vu. Sv\u011bt se zm\u011bnil rychleji, ne\u017e jsem sta\u010dil pochopit. Telefony u\u017e nemaj\u00ed tla\u010d\u00edtka a dopisy nahradily obrazovky. J\u00e1 si ale st\u00e1le pamatuji v\u016fni inkoustu a \u0161ust\u011bn\u00ed pap\u00edru.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00edval jsem se na sv\u00ed\u010dku a p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lel, kolik narozenin je\u0161t\u011b p\u0159ijde. Mo\u017en\u00e1 \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9. A p\u0159esto jsem nec\u00edtil strach. Sp\u00ed\u0161 zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed zv\u011bdavost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pro\u017eil jsem v\u00e1lku jako mal\u00fd kluk. Pamatuji si hlad i radost z prvn\u00edho m\u00edru. Stav\u011bl jsem d\u016fm vlastn\u00edma rukama. Sazil jsem stromy, kter\u00e9 dnes p\u0159erostly st\u0159echu. Sm\u00e1l jsem se, plakal, pracoval do \u00fanavy. Ud\u011blal jsem chyby, kter\u00fdch lituji, a rozhodnut\u00ed, na kter\u00e1 jsem hrd\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u017divot nen\u00ed rovn\u00e1 cesta. Je to sp\u00ed\u0161 klikat\u00e1 stezka, po kter\u00e9 \u010dlov\u011bk ob\u010das zakopne, ale p\u0159esto jde d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Plamen sv\u00ed\u010dky se znovu zachv\u011bl. Otev\u0159en\u00e9 okno pou\u0161t\u011blo dovnit\u0159 chladn\u00fd podzimn\u00ed vzduch. Vstal jsem pomalu, op\u0159el se o h\u016fl a okno p\u0159iv\u0159el. Necht\u011bl jsem, aby zhasla d\u0159\u00edv, ne\u017e si n\u011bco p\u0159eji.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lel jsem, co si m\u00e1 p\u0159\u00e1t mu\u017e ve v\u011bku devades\u00e1ti sedmi let. Dal\u0161\u00ed roky? M\u00e9n\u011b bolesti v kloubech? V\u00edce n\u00e1v\u0161t\u011bv?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nakonec jsem si p\u0159\u00e1l jen klid. Klid pro sv\u00e9 d\u011bti, pro vnuky. A tak\u00e9 pro sebe, a\u017e p\u0159ijde \u010das odej\u00edt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sfoukl jsem sv\u00ed\u010dku a tenk\u00fd prou\u017eek kou\u0159e se zvedl ke stropu. M\u00edstnost potemn\u011bla, ale nebyla \u00fapln\u011b tmav\u00e1. Z venku sem dopadalo m\u011bkk\u00e9 sv\u011btlo zapadaj\u00edc\u00edho slunce.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Uv\u011bdomil jsem si, \u017ee smysl ho\u0159en\u00ed nespo\u010d\u00edv\u00e1 v tom, jak dlouho plamen vydr\u017e\u00ed, ale v tom, \u017ee v\u016fbec ho\u0159\u00ed. Ka\u017ed\u00fd rok, ka\u017ed\u00e1 vzpom\u00ednka, ka\u017ed\u00fd dotek \u2013 to v\u0161echno je sou\u010d\u00e1st\u00ed toho sv\u011btla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dnes jsem oslavil sv\u00e9 97. narozeniny.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A i kdy\u017e je m\u016fj plamen men\u0161\u00ed a chv\u011bje se v pr\u016fvanu \u010dasu, st\u00e1le ho\u0159\u00ed. A dokud ho\u0159\u00ed, m\u00e1 smysl.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Sed\u011bl jsem u mal\u00e9ho stolu u okna a d\u00edval se na ten neklidn\u00fd plam\u00ednek. Dort byl oby\u010dejn\u00fd, koupen\u00fd v m\u00edstn\u00ed pek\u00e1rn\u011b. 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