{"id":4276,"date":"2026-03-02T19:11:13","date_gmt":"2026-03-02T19:11:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=4276"},"modified":"2026-03-02T19:11:13","modified_gmt":"2026-03-02T19:11:13","slug":"kazdou-noc-jsem-se-budila-s-tim-zvlastnim-tisnivym-pocitem-jako-by-v-mistnosti-nebyli-jen-my-dva-nebyl-to-hluk-nebyl-to-sen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=4276","title":{"rendered":"Ka\u017edou noc jsem se budila s t\u00edm zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00edm, t\u00edsniv\u00fdm pocitem, jako by v m\u00edstnosti nebyli jen my dva. Nebyl to hluk, nebyl to sen."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Byla to pr\u00e1zdn\u00e1, chladn\u00e1 noc, kter\u00e1 se zd\u00e1la nekone\u010dn\u00e1. Lo\u017enice byla temn\u00e1, jen m\u011bs\u00ed\u010dn\u00ed sv\u011btlo se prod\u00edralo skrz z\u00e1v\u011bsy a kreslilo na zdi pruhy st\u00edn\u016f. Vedle m\u011b spal mu\u017e, kter\u00e9ho jsem milovala, a p\u0159esto jsem c\u00edtila, \u017ee nejsem sama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"684\" src=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-17.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4277\" srcset=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-17.png 1024w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-17-300x200.png 300w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/image-17-768x513.png 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Nejd\u0159\u00edve jsem si myslela, \u017ee je to jen \u00fanava, nap\u011bt\u00ed z pr\u00e1ce nebo stres, kter\u00fd se hromad\u00ed b\u011bhem dne. Ale ten pocit byl jin\u00fd. T\u00edsniv\u00fd. Tak intenzivn\u00ed, \u017ee m\u011b p\u0159im\u011bl sednout si na postel a poslouchat. Poslouchat ticho, kter\u00e9 bylo p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 hlasit\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>V\u017edycky, kdy\u017e jsem zav\u0159ela o\u010di, c\u00edtila jsem p\u0159\u00edtomnost n\u011b\u010deho, co tam b\u00fdt nem\u011blo. Ne\u0161lo o \u0161elest nebo \u0161kr\u00e1b\u00e1n\u00ed, nebyl to ani n\u00e1hl\u00fd pohyb st\u00ednu. Bylo to\u2026 jako kdyby vzduch s\u00e1m m\u011bl tvar, jako by n\u011bkdo st\u00e1l t\u011bsn\u011b za mnou, t\u011b\u017ek\u00fd, neviditeln\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u010casem jsem si za\u010dala v\u0161\u00edmat podivn\u00fdch detail\u016f. Mal\u00e9 v\u011bci, kter\u00e9 by \u010dlov\u011bk mohl p\u0159ehl\u00e9dnout \u2013 m\u00edrn\u011b posunut\u00e1 \u017eidle u stolu, kniha na polici oto\u010den\u00e1 jinak, ne\u017e jsem ji nechala. N\u011bkdy jsem na\u0161la drobn\u00e9 stopy prachu, kter\u00e9 vypadaly, jako by n\u011bkdo pro\u0161el po pokoji. A poka\u017ed\u00e9, kdy\u017e jsem se oto\u010dila, nebylo tam nic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u016fj partner si v\u0161iml m\u00e9ho nap\u011bt\u00ed. \u201eTo je jen tvoje p\u0159edstavivost,\u201c \u0159ekl jednou, kdy\u017e jsem se t\u0159\u00e1sla v posteli. \u201eSp\u00ed\u0161 se stresuje\u0161.\u201c Ale j\u00e1 v\u011bd\u011bla, \u017ee to nen\u00ed p\u0159edstavivost. Ten pocit byl hmatateln\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jednoho ve\u010dera jsem se rozhodla jednat. P\u0159inesla jsem sv\u00ed\u010dku a pomalu obch\u00e1zela lo\u017enici. Ka\u017ed\u00fd kout jsem osv\u00edtila sv\u011btlem, ka\u017ed\u00fd st\u00edn zkoumala. Ale nic. Nic, co bych mohla uchopit. Jen pr\u00e1zdnota a ticho, kter\u00e9 m\u011b d\u011blalo je\u0161t\u011b v\u00edc bd\u011blou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pak p\u0159i\u0161la noc, kter\u00e1 zm\u011bnila v\u0161echno. Le\u017eela jsem vzh\u016fru, sleduj\u00edc slab\u00e9 sv\u011btlo pouli\u010dn\u00ed lampy, kdy\u017e jsem n\u00e1hle c\u00edtila chladn\u00fd dotek na rameni. N\u011bkdo \u2013 nebo n\u011bco \u2013 m\u011b lehce postr\u010dilo. Srdce mi vysko\u010dilo. Oto\u010dila jsem se \u2013 a znovu, nikdo tam nebyl. Ale vzduch z\u016fstal t\u011b\u017ek\u00fd, jako kdyby p\u0159ed chv\u00edl\u00ed n\u011bkdo skute\u010dn\u011b st\u00e1l u postele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Od t\u00e9 chv\u00edle jsem p\u0159estala sp\u00e1t sama. P\u0159es den jsem se sna\u017eila ignorovat pocit, ale v noci u\u017e nebylo \u00faniku. Ka\u017ed\u00fd ve\u010der jsem rozsv\u011bcovala lampy, uzamykala dve\u0159e a p\u0159esto c\u00edtila, \u017ee prostor kolem m\u011b nen\u00ed jen m\u016fj.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A tak te\u010f \u017eijeme s t\u00edmto tich\u00fdm st\u00ednem. N\u011bkdy ho sly\u0161\u00edm, kdy\u017e partner chr\u00e1pe, a vid\u00edm ho v koutku oka, kdy\u017e mysl\u00edm, \u017ee nikdo nekouk\u00e1. Nebyl to hluk. Nebyl to sen. Bylo to n\u011bco\u2026 v\u00edc. N\u011bco, co n\u00e1s sleduje a \u010dek\u00e1. A j\u00e1 se pomalu u\u010d\u00edm \u017e\u00edt s v\u011bdom\u00edm, \u017ee nejsme nikdy \u00fapln\u011b sami.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ka\u017edou noc, kdy zav\u0159u o\u010di, se p\u0159ipravuji na jeho p\u0159\u00edtomnost. N\u011bco v m\u00edstnosti, co nepat\u0159\u00ed n\u00e1m, ale z\u016fst\u00e1v\u00e1. A j\u00e1 v\u00edm, \u017ee nen\u00ed zp\u016fsob, jak se toho \u00fapln\u011b zbavit. M\u016f\u017eu jen p\u0159ijmout, \u017ee jsme t\u0159i \u2013 my dva a ten tich\u00fd, neviditeln\u00fd pozorovatel, kter\u00fd bd\u00ed nad na\u0161\u00edm sp\u00e1nkem.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Byla to pr\u00e1zdn\u00e1, chladn\u00e1 noc, kter\u00e1 se zd\u00e1la nekone\u010dn\u00e1. Lo\u017enice byla temn\u00e1, jen m\u011bs\u00ed\u010dn\u00ed sv\u011btlo se prod\u00edralo skrz z\u00e1v\u011bsy a kreslilo na zdi \n<a class=\"moretag\" href=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=4276\"> [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4277,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4276","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":560,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4276","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4276"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4276\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4278,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4276\/revisions\/4278"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4277"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4276"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4276"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4276"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}