{"id":3984,"date":"2026-02-14T21:07:26","date_gmt":"2026-02-14T21:07:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3984"},"modified":"2026-02-14T21:07:26","modified_gmt":"2026-02-14T21:07:26","slug":"jsem-svobodny-otec-dvou-malych-holcicek-muj-zivot-uz-davno-neni-jednoduchy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3984","title":{"rendered":"Jsem svobodn\u00fd otec dvou mal\u00fdch hol\u010di\u010dek. M\u016fj \u017eivot u\u017e d\u00e1vno nen\u00ed jednoduch\u00fd."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Ka\u017ed\u00e9 r\u00e1no za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 stejn\u011b. Bud\u00edk zvon\u00ed v 5:45, ale j\u00e1 u\u017e jsem v\u011bt\u0161inou vzh\u016fru. Mlad\u0161\u00ed Ani\u010dka se v noci \u010dasto bud\u00ed ze span\u00ed a star\u0161\u00ed Kl\u00e1rka m\u00e1 zase obdob\u00ed no\u010dn\u00edch m\u016fr. N\u011bkdy se mi zd\u00e1, \u017ee jsem nespal cel\u00e9 roky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Vstanu ti\u0161e, abych je nevzbudil, a jdu do kuchyn\u011b p\u0159ipravit sn\u00eddani. Dva rohl\u00edky s m\u00e1slem, jeden s marmel\u00e1dou bez kousk\u016f ovoce \u2013 proto\u017ee Kl\u00e1rka \u201enem\u00e1 r\u00e1da te\u010dky\u201c. Kakao nesm\u00ed b\u00fdt p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 hork\u00e9. A hrne\u010dek mus\u00ed b\u00fdt ten s jednoro\u017ecem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nikdy jsem si nemyslel, \u017ee budu zn\u00e1t tolik detail\u016f o d\u011btsk\u00fdch preferenc\u00edch. D\u0159\u00edv jsem \u0159e\u0161il pracovn\u00ed sch\u016fzky, term\u00edny, pl\u00e1ny na v\u00edkend s p\u0159\u00e1teli. Te\u010f \u0159e\u0161\u00edm, kde se ztratila obl\u00edben\u00e1 sponka do vlas\u016f a pro\u010d je ply\u0161ov\u00fd medv\u011bd \u201esmutn\u00fd\u201c.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kdy\u017e ode\u0161la jejich m\u00e1ma, byly Ani\u010dce t\u0159i a Kl\u00e1rce p\u011bt. Neode\u0161la dramaticky. Nebyly h\u00e1dky ani rozb\u00edjen\u00ed tal\u00ed\u0159\u016f. Jen jednoho dne \u0159ekla, \u017ee u\u017e nem\u016f\u017ee d\u00e1l. \u017de je unaven\u00e1, ztracen\u00e1, \u017ee pot\u0159ebuje naj\u00edt sama sebe. A j\u00e1 z\u016fstal st\u00e1t v p\u0159eds\u00edni se dv\u011bma d\u011btmi, kter\u00e9 nech\u00e1paly, pro\u010d m\u00e1ma bal\u00ed kufr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Prvn\u00ed m\u011bs\u00edce byly nejhor\u0161\u00ed. Hol\u010di\u010dky plakaly ka\u017edou noc. Ptaly se, kdy se vr\u00e1t\u00ed. J\u00e1 jsem odpov\u00eddal neur\u010dit\u011b, proto\u017ee jsem s\u00e1m nev\u011bd\u011bl. U\u010dil jsem se \u010desat cop\u00e1nky podle vide\u00ed na internetu. Nau\u010dil jsem se, \u017ee r\u016f\u017eov\u00e1 a fialov\u00e1 k sob\u011b n\u011bkdy prost\u011b \u201enejdou\u201c, i kdy\u017e mn\u011b p\u0159ipadaj\u00ed \u00fapln\u011b stejn\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Byly chv\u00edle, kdy jsem si p\u0159ipadal neschopn\u00fd. Kdy\u017e jsem p\u0159i\u0161el pozd\u011b do \u0161kolky, kdy\u017e jsem zapomn\u011bl na karnevalov\u00fd kost\u00fdm, kdy\u017e jsem ztratil trp\u011blivost a zv\u00fd\u0161il hlas. Pak jsem si ve\u010der sedl k jejich postel\u00edm a sledoval, jak sp\u00ed. A p\u0159\u00edsahal jsem si, \u017ee z\u00edtra budu lep\u0161\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nejt\u011b\u017e\u0161\u00ed jsou ot\u00e1zky. \u201eTati, pro\u010d n\u00e1s m\u00e1ma nem\u00e1 r\u00e1da?\u201c ptala se jednou Kl\u00e1rka. Ta v\u011bta m\u011b zas\u00e1hla jako r\u00e1na do hrudi. Vysv\u011btloval jsem j\u00ed, \u017ee l\u00e1ska m\u016f\u017ee vypadat r\u016fzn\u011b. \u017de n\u011bkdy dosp\u011bl\u00ed d\u011blaj\u00ed chyby. Ale \u017ee to nikdy nen\u00ed chyba d\u011bt\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pracuji z domova, proto\u017ee jinak bych to nezvl\u00e1dl. Dopoledne e-maily, odpoledne h\u0159i\u0161t\u011b, ve\u010der poh\u00e1dky a pr\u00e1dlo. M\u016fj \u017eivot je nekone\u010dn\u00fd kolob\u011bh povinnost\u00ed. A p\u0159esto\u2026 v tom v\u0161em je n\u011bco, co bych za nic nevym\u011bnil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Minul\u00fd t\u00fdden jsem m\u011bl opravdu \u0161patn\u00fd den. Klient mi zru\u0161il d\u016fle\u017eitou zak\u00e1zku, p\u0159i\u0161la slo\u017eenka za elekt\u0159inu vy\u0161\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e jsem \u010dekal, a Ani\u010dka dostala ve \u0161kolce hore\u010dku. Sed\u011bl jsem v kuchyni, hlavu v dlan\u00edch, a c\u00edtil se \u00fapln\u011b vy\u010derpan\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kl\u00e1rka p\u0159i\u0161la potichu ke mn\u011b. \u201eTati, ty pl\u00e1\u010de\u0161?\u201c zeptala se opatrn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJen jsem unaven\u00fd,\u201c odpov\u011bd\u011bl jsem a sna\u017eil se usm\u00e1t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ona nic ne\u0159ekla. Jen m\u011b objala kolem krku a za\u0161eptala: \u201eTy jsi nejlep\u0161\u00ed t\u00e1ta na sv\u011bt\u011b. I kdy\u017e neum\u00ed\u0161 d\u011blat rovn\u00e9 cop\u00e1nky.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Rozesm\u00e1l jsem se skrz slzy. V tu chv\u00edli jsem pochopil, \u017ee dokonalost nen\u00ed to, co pot\u0159ebuj\u00ed. Pot\u0159ebuj\u00ed m\u011b. P\u0159\u00edtomn\u00e9ho. Up\u0159\u00edmn\u00e9ho. Sna\u017e\u00edc\u00edho se.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jsem svobodn\u00fd otec dvou mal\u00fdch hol\u010di\u010dek. M\u016fj \u017eivot u\u017e d\u00e1vno nen\u00ed jednoduch\u00fd. Nem\u00e1m \u010das na spont\u00e1nn\u00ed v\u00fdlety ani klidn\u00e9 ve\u010dery s knihou. M\u00edsto toho m\u00e1m pastelky na stole, d\u011btsk\u00fd sm\u00edch v ob\u00fdv\u00e1ku a ob\u010das i slzy, kter\u00e9 ut\u00edr\u00e1m mal\u00fdmi kapesn\u00ed\u010dky s poh\u00e1dkov\u00fdmi postavami.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u011bkdy se boj\u00edm budoucnosti. Boj\u00edm se, jestli jim dok\u00e1\u017eu d\u00e1t v\u0161echno, co pot\u0159ebuj\u00ed. Jestli jim dok\u00e1\u017eu nahradit i to, co jim chyb\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ale pak p\u0159ijde ve\u010der. Ulo\u017e\u00edm je do postele, p\u0159e\u010dtu poh\u00e1dku a oni m\u011b dr\u017e\u00ed za ruku, dokud neusnou. A j\u00e1 v\u00edm, \u017ee i kdy\u017e je m\u016fj \u017eivot t\u011b\u017ek\u00fd, je tak\u00e9 pln\u00fd smyslu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nejsem dokonal\u00fd otec. Jsem unaven\u00fd, n\u011bkdy nejist\u00fd, ob\u010das p\u0159\u00edsn\u00fd. Ale ka\u017ed\u00fd den vst\u00e1v\u00e1m s jedin\u00fdm c\u00edlem \u2013 aby v\u011bd\u011bly, \u017ee jsou milovan\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A mo\u017en\u00e1 pr\u00e1v\u011b to sta\u010d\u00ed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Ka\u017ed\u00e9 r\u00e1no za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 stejn\u011b. Bud\u00edk zvon\u00ed v 5:45, ale j\u00e1 u\u017e jsem v\u011bt\u0161inou vzh\u016fru. Mlad\u0161\u00ed Ani\u010dka se v noci \u010dasto bud\u00ed ze span\u00ed \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3985,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3984","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":437,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3984","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3984"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3984\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3986,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3984\/revisions\/3986"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3985"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3984"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3984"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3984"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}