{"id":3532,"date":"2026-01-15T19:20:52","date_gmt":"2026-01-15T19:20:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3532"},"modified":"2026-01-15T19:20:53","modified_gmt":"2026-01-15T19:20:53","slug":"zarazila-jsem-se-v-hlave-se-mi-rozvirily-chaoticke-vzpominky-parkoviste-igelitky-s-jidlem","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3532","title":{"rendered":"Zarazila jsem se. V hlav\u011b se mi rozv\u00ed\u0159ily chaotick\u00e9 vzpom\u00ednky: parkovi\u0161t\u011b, igelitky s j\u00eddlem"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Zarazila jsem se. V hlav\u011b se mi rozv\u00ed\u0159ily chaotick\u00e9 vzpom\u00ednky: parkovi\u0161t\u011b, igelitky s j\u00eddlem, studen\u00fd v\u00edtr, kter\u00fd mi tehdy profukoval kab\u00e1tem. Ten obraz se objevil bez varov\u00e1n\u00ed, ostr\u00fd a nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u00fd, jako kdy\u017e se \u010dlov\u011bk lekne vlastn\u00edho st\u00ednu. St\u00e1la jsem uprost\u0159ed ob\u00fdv\u00e1ku a p\u0159itom jsem tam znovu byla \u2014 mezi zaparkovan\u00fdmi auty, s rukama pln\u00fdma n\u00e1kupu a hlavou p\u0159epln\u011bnou starostmi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"893\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/image-66.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3533\" srcset=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/image-66.png 893w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/image-66-262x300.png 262w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/image-66-768x881.png 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 893px) 100vw, 893px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Pamatuji si ten den a\u017e podez\u0159ele jasn\u011b. Nebylo na n\u011bm nic v\u00fdjime\u010dn\u00e9ho. Oby\u010dejn\u00fd n\u00e1vrat z obchodu, oby\u010dejn\u00e1 \u00fanava, oby\u010dejn\u00fd seznam v\u011bc\u00ed, kter\u00e9 jsem je\u0161t\u011b musela stihnout. A p\u0159esto se mi ten okam\u017eik vryl do pam\u011bti tak hluboko, \u017ee se k n\u011bmu mysl vrac\u00ed, kdykoli zav\u00e1h\u00e1m. Igelitky se mi tehdy za\u0159ez\u00e1valy do prst\u016f a j\u00e1 p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lela, pro\u010d si zase beru v\u00edc, ne\u017e unesou ruce.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Te\u010f, o tolik let pozd\u011bji, m\u011b ta vzpom\u00ednka zastavila uprost\u0159ed pohybu. Jako by mi n\u011bkdo polo\u017eil ruku na rameno a donutil m\u011b zpomalit. Uv\u011bdomila jsem si, \u017ee ty obrazy nejsou n\u00e1hodn\u00e9. Vracely se poka\u017ed\u00e9, kdy\u017e jsem byla na hran\u011b, kdy\u017e jsem ignorovala vlastn\u00ed \u00fanavu a tv\u00e1\u0159ila se, \u017ee v\u0161echno zvl\u00e1dnu sama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Parkovi\u0161t\u011b bylo symbolem p\u0159echodu. Mezi obchodem a domovem, mezi povinnostmi a klidem, kter\u00fd stejn\u011b nikdy nep\u0159i\u0161el. Vzpomn\u011bla jsem si, jak jsem tehdy hledala kl\u00ed\u010de, nerv\u00f3zn\u011b p\u0159e\u0161lapovala a m\u011bla pocit, \u017ee jsem na v\u0161echno sama. \u017de se sv\u011bt nezastav\u00ed, ani kdy\u017e mi t\u011b\u017eknou ruce a hlava.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>St\u00e1la jsem tam tehdy stejn\u011b jako dnes \u2014 s pocitem, \u017ee mus\u00edm pokra\u010dovat. Jen\u017ee dnes jsem se kone\u010dn\u011b zastavila. Ne fyzicky, ale uvnit\u0159. Uv\u011bdomila jsem si, \u017ee ty chaotick\u00e9 vzpom\u00ednky nejsou slabost\u00ed, ale varov\u00e1n\u00edm. P\u0159ipom\u00ednkou, \u017ee i zd\u00e1nliv\u011b bezv\u00fdznamn\u00e9 okam\u017eiky v sob\u011b nesou emoce, kter\u00e9 si t\u011blo pamatuje l\u00e9pe ne\u017e mysl.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Posadila jsem se a nechala ty obrazy proj\u00edt hlavou bez odporu. Parkovi\u0161t\u011b se pomalu rozplynulo, igelitky ztratily v\u00e1hu. Z\u016fstal jen klidn\u00fd dech a tich\u00e9 rozhodnut\u00ed. Nemus\u00edm v\u0161echno n\u00e9st sama. Nemus\u00edm sp\u011bchat jen proto, \u017ee jsem to d\u011blala v\u017edycky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zarazila jsem se. A poprv\u00e9 jsem pochopila, \u017ee pr\u00e1v\u011b to zastaven\u00ed je mo\u017en\u00e1 ten nejd\u016fle\u017eit\u011bj\u0161\u00ed krok vp\u0159ed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Zarazila jsem se. V hlav\u011b se mi rozv\u00ed\u0159ily chaotick\u00e9 vzpom\u00ednky: parkovi\u0161t\u011b, igelitky s j\u00eddlem, studen\u00fd v\u00edtr, kter\u00fd mi tehdy profukoval kab\u00e1tem. 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