{"id":3514,"date":"2026-01-14T14:54:57","date_gmt":"2026-01-14T14:54:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3514"},"modified":"2026-01-14T14:54:58","modified_gmt":"2026-01-14T14:54:58","slug":"ten-den-mi-bylo-devadesat-sedm-a-poprve-za-mnoho-let-jsem-si-uvedomil-ze-o-me-svet-temer-nevi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3514","title":{"rendered":"Ten den mi bylo devades\u00e1t sedm. A poprv\u00e9 za mnoho let jsem si uv\u011bdomil, \u017ee o m\u011b sv\u011bt t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 nev\u00ed."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Ten den mi bylo devades\u00e1t sedm. A poprv\u00e9 za mnoho let jsem si uv\u011bdomil, \u017ee o m\u011b sv\u011bt t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 nev\u00ed. Ne \u017ee by na m\u011b zapomn\u011bl \u2014 sp\u00ed\u0161 jsem se mu postupn\u011b vytratil. Jako star\u00e1 pozn\u00e1mka na okraji knihy, kterou u\u017e nikdo neotev\u00edr\u00e1. Sed\u011bl jsem u okna sv\u00e9ho mal\u00e9ho bytu a sledoval ulici, po kter\u00e9 jsem kdysi chodil rychl\u00fdm krokem, s hlavou plnou pl\u00e1n\u016f a kapesn\u00edkem pln\u00fdm sn\u016f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Narozeniny nebyly nijak slavnostn\u00ed. \u017d\u00e1dn\u00e9 balonky, \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fd dort se sv\u00ed\u010dkami. Jen hrnek \u010daje, kter\u00fd u\u017e mi nechutnal tak jako d\u0159\u00edv, a ticho, kter\u00e9 m\u011b znalo l\u00e9pe ne\u017e kdokoliv jin\u00fd. Telefon nezvonil. Ne proto, \u017ee by lid\u00e9 byli zl\u00ed. Prost\u011b u\u017e nebyli. P\u0159\u00e1tel\u00e9 ode\u0161li jeden po druh\u00e9m, rodina se rozpt\u00fdlila po m\u011bstech a kontinentech, a j\u00e1 z\u016fstal na m\u00edst\u011b, zat\u00edmco sv\u011bt se posunul d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vzpom\u00ednky p\u0159ich\u00e1zely samy. Ne ty velk\u00e9, slavn\u00e9 okam\u017eiky, ale drobnosti \u2014 v\u016fn\u011b mokr\u00e9 p\u016fdy po de\u0161ti, sm\u00edch \u017eeny, kterou jsem miloval, zvuk vlaku, kter\u00fdm jsem jel poprv\u00e9 s\u00e1m. \u017divot se mi neprom\u00edtal jako film, sp\u00ed\u0161 jako s\u00e9rie tich\u00fdch obraz\u016f bez r\u00e1mu. Uv\u011bdomil jsem si, kolik v\u011bc\u00ed jsem ud\u011blal spr\u00e1vn\u011b a kolik jsem ud\u011blal \u0161patn\u011b, a \u017ee oboj\u00ed m\u011b dovedlo a\u017e sem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kdysi jsem b\u00fdval n\u011bk\u00fdm. Ne slavn\u00fd, ne v\u00fdjime\u010dn\u00fd, ale viditeln\u00fd. M\u011bl jsem pr\u00e1ci, kter\u00e1 d\u00e1vala smysl, lid\u00e9 se na m\u011b obraceli s ot\u00e1zkami, n\u011bkdo m\u011b pot\u0159eboval. Dnes u\u017e m\u011b nikdo nepot\u0159ebuje. A p\u0159esto jsem tu. D\u00fdch\u00e1m, mysl\u00edm, c\u00edt\u00edm. To samo o sob\u011b je zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed druh existence \u2014 b\u00fdt, ani\u017e by o v\u00e1s n\u011bkdo v\u011bd\u011bl.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nejv\u00edc m\u011b p\u0159ekvapilo, \u017ee m\u011b ten pocit nebolel tak, jak bych \u010dekal. Nebyl v n\u011bm vztek ani l\u00edtost. Sp\u00ed\u0161 klidn\u00e9 p\u0159ijet\u00ed. Mo\u017en\u00e1 jsem cel\u00fd \u017eivot sm\u011b\u0159oval k tomuto bodu, ani\u017e bych to tu\u0161il. K okam\u017eiku, kdy se \u010dlov\u011bk setk\u00e1 s\u00e1m se sebou, bez publika, bez sv\u011bdk\u016f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kdy\u017e se venku setm\u011blo, rozsv\u00edtil jsem lampu. Jej\u00ed sv\u011btlo bylo slab\u00e9, ale sta\u010dilo. \u0158\u00edkal jsem si, \u017ee sv\u011bt o mn\u011b mo\u017en\u00e1 nev\u00ed, ale to neznamen\u00e1, \u017ee jsem nem\u011bl smysl. Moje kroky zanechaly stopy v \u017eivotech lid\u00ed, i kdy\u017e u\u017e si na n\u011b nikdo nepamatuje. A to je v po\u0159\u00e1dku.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ten den mi bylo devades\u00e1t sedm. A poprv\u00e9 jsem pochopil, \u017ee b\u00fdt neviditeln\u00fd neznamen\u00e1 b\u00fdt pr\u00e1zdn\u00fd. Znamen\u00e1 to jen, \u017ee p\u0159\u00edb\u011bh u\u017e nen\u00ed vypr\u00e1v\u011bn nahlas \u2014 ale po\u0159\u00e1d existuje. Tady, ve mn\u011b.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Ten den mi bylo devades\u00e1t sedm. A poprv\u00e9 za mnoho let jsem si uv\u011bdomil, \u017ee o m\u011b sv\u011bt t\u00e9m\u011b\u0159 nev\u00ed. Ne \u017ee by \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3515,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3514","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":298,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3514","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3514"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3514\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3516,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3514\/revisions\/3516"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3515"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3514"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3514"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3514"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}