{"id":3511,"date":"2026-01-14T11:28:15","date_gmt":"2026-01-14T11:28:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3511"},"modified":"2026-01-14T11:28:17","modified_gmt":"2026-01-14T11:28:17","slug":"je-mi-ctyricet-jedna-let-muj-prvni-manzel-peter-zemrel-pred-sesti-lety-pri-autonehode-ktera-rozdelila-muj-zivot-na-pred-a-po","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3511","title":{"rendered":"Je mi \u010dty\u0159icet jedna let. M\u016fj prvn\u00ed man\u017eel Peter zem\u0159el p\u0159ed \u0161esti lety p\u0159i autonehod\u011b, kter\u00e1 rozd\u011blila m\u016fj \u017eivot na \u201ep\u0159ed\u201c a \u201epo\u201c."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Je mi \u010dty\u0159icet jedna let. M\u016fj prvn\u00ed man\u017eel Peter zem\u0159el p\u0159ed \u0161esti lety p\u0159i autonehod\u011b, kter\u00e1 rozd\u011blila m\u016fj \u017eivot na \u201ep\u0159ed\u201c a \u201epo\u201c. Ne\u0161lo jen o ztr\u00e1tu \u010dlov\u011bka, kter\u00e9ho jsem milovala. Zmizela s n\u00edm i verze m\u011b samotn\u00e9, kter\u00e1 v\u011b\u0159ila, \u017ee budoucnost je n\u011bco, co se d\u00e1 pl\u00e1novat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ten den si pamatuji a\u017e bolestn\u011b p\u0159esn\u011b. Oby\u010dejn\u00e9 r\u00e1no, rychl\u00e1 sn\u00eddan\u011b, kr\u00e1tk\u00e1 h\u00e1dka o hloupostech. Ode\u0161el s t\u00edm, \u017ee se ve\u010der uvid\u00edme. Ta v\u011bta se mi dodnes vrac\u00ed v hlav\u011b, poka\u017ed\u00e9 kdy\u017e sly\u0161\u00edm n\u011bkoho lou\u010dit se stejn\u00fdmi slovy. Ve\u010der u\u017e nep\u0159i\u0161el. M\u00edsto n\u011bj zazvonil telefon a sv\u011bt se najednou z\u00fa\u017eil na jednu v\u011btu, kterou jsem dlouho nedok\u00e1zala pochopit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Prvn\u00ed m\u011bs\u00edce po jeho smrti byly mlhav\u00e9. Fungovala jsem automaticky \u2014 vst\u00e1t, pracovat, odpov\u00eddat lidem, kte\u0159\u00ed \u0159\u00edkali, \u017ee to bude lep\u0161\u00ed. Nev\u011bd\u011bla jsem, co jim na to \u0159\u00edct. Jak vysv\u011btlit, \u017ee \u201elep\u0161\u00ed\u201c nen\u00ed c\u00edl, kter\u00fd bych tehdy dok\u00e1zala p\u0159ijmout? \u017de jsem cht\u011bla jen n\u00e1vrat k tomu, co bylo, i kdy\u017e to u\u017e nebylo mo\u017en\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u010cas m\u011bnil v\u0161echno, ale ne tak, jak jsem \u010dekala. Smutek se nezmen\u0161oval, jen m\u011bnil podobu. P\u0159estal b\u00fdt ostr\u00fd a stal se tich\u00fdm spole\u010dn\u00edkem. Nau\u010dila jsem se s n\u00edm \u017e\u00edt, pl\u00e1novat kolem n\u011bj, br\u00e1t ho v \u00favahu p\u0159i d\u016fle\u017eit\u00fdch rozhodnut\u00edch. Peter z\u016fstal sou\u010d\u00e1st\u00ed m\u00e9ho \u017eivota, i kdy\u017e fyzicky ode\u0161el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Po letech jsem si uv\u011bdomila, \u017ee \u017eiji jinak. Opatrn\u011bji. V\u00edc si v\u00e1\u017e\u00edm klidn\u00fdch dn\u016f, oby\u010dejn\u00fdch rozhovor\u016f, moment\u016f, kter\u00e9 by d\u0159\u00edv zapadly. U\u017e neodkl\u00e1d\u00e1m v\u011bci na \u201ea\u017e n\u011bkdy\u201c. V\u00edm, jak k\u0159ehk\u00e9 to \u201en\u011bkdy\u201c je. Nau\u010dila jsem se \u0159\u00edkat lidem, \u017ee je m\u00e1m r\u00e1da, i kdy\u017e to ob\u010das zn\u00ed neobratn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Znovu jsem se sm\u00e1la, znovu jsem se dok\u00e1zala t\u011b\u0161it. Neznamen\u00e1 to, \u017ee bych zapomn\u011bla. Znamen\u00e1 to, \u017ee jsem p\u0159e\u017eila. \u017de jsem p\u0159ijala fakt, \u017ee \u017eivot po ztr\u00e1t\u011b nen\u00ed zradou minulosti, ale jej\u00edm pokra\u010dov\u00e1n\u00edm v jin\u00e9 podob\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Je mi \u010dty\u0159icet jedna let. Nos\u00edm v sob\u011b p\u0159\u00edb\u011bh, kter\u00fd bych si nikdy nevybrala, ale kter\u00fd m\u011b formoval. M\u016fj \u017eivot m\u00e1 jasnou hranici mezi \u201ep\u0159ed\u201c a \u201epo\u201c. A p\u0159esto, navzdory v\u0161emu, st\u00e1le pokra\u010duje. Jin\u00fd, hlub\u0161\u00ed, mo\u017en\u00e1 ti\u0161\u0161\u00ed \u2014 ale po\u0159\u00e1d m\u016fj.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Je mi \u010dty\u0159icet jedna let. M\u016fj prvn\u00ed man\u017eel Peter zem\u0159el p\u0159ed \u0161esti lety p\u0159i autonehod\u011b, kter\u00e1 rozd\u011blila m\u016fj \u017eivot na \u201ep\u0159ed\u201c a \u201epo\u201c. \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3512,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3511","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":5530,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3511","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3511"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3511\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3513,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3511\/revisions\/3513"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3512"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3511"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3511"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3511"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}