{"id":3366,"date":"2026-01-02T21:17:42","date_gmt":"2026-01-02T21:17:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3366"},"modified":"2026-01-02T21:17:43","modified_gmt":"2026-01-02T21:17:43","slug":"lekari-me-roky-ponizovali-tvrdili-ze-je-to-moje-vina","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3366","title":{"rendered":"\u201eL\u00e9ka\u0159i m\u011b roky poni\u017eovali. Tvrdili, \u017ee je to moje vina.\u201c"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Ta v\u011bta ve mn\u011b zr\u00e1la dlouho. Ne\u0159ekla jsem ji nahlas hned, proto\u017ee jsem se b\u00e1la, \u017ee bude zn\u00edt p\u0159ehnan\u011b, hystericky, \u017ee ji n\u011bkdo smete ze stolu stejn\u011b jako tolik m\u00fdch st\u00ed\u017enost\u00ed p\u0159edt\u00edm. Nau\u010dila jsem se mluvit opatrn\u011b, v\u00e1\u017eit slova, zleh\u010dovat bolest. Nau\u010dila jsem se p\u0159ikyvovat, i kdy\u017e jsem c\u00edtila, \u017ee se se mnou zach\u00e1z\u00ed nespravedliv\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Za\u010dalo to nen\u00e1padn\u011b. \u00danavou, kter\u00e1 nep\u0159ech\u00e1zela. Bolestmi, je\u017e se vracely bez vysv\u011btlen\u00ed. Kdy\u017e jsem \u0161la poprv\u00e9 k l\u00e9ka\u0159i, ode\u0161la jsem s pocitem studu. \u201eMus\u00edte v\u00edc odpo\u010d\u00edvat.\u201c \u201eTo je stres.\u201c \u201eZkuste zm\u011bnit \u017eivotn\u00ed styl.\u201c V jejich hlase nebyla zv\u011bdavost, jen hotov\u00fd z\u00e1v\u011br. Jako bych byla probl\u00e9m, ne \u010dlov\u011bk s probl\u00e9mem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Roky plynuly a j\u00e1 se vracela znovu a znovu. Ka\u017ed\u00e1 n\u00e1v\u0161t\u011bva byla podobn\u00e1. Ot\u00e1zky, kter\u00e9 sm\u011b\u0159ovaly jinam ne\u017e k m\u00e9mu t\u011blu. Pozn\u00e1mky o v\u00e1ze, o psychice, o tom, \u017ee jsem \u201ep\u0159\u00edli\u0161 citliv\u00e1\u201c. Nikdo m\u011b nebouchal ani nek\u0159i\u010del. A p\u0159esto jsem odch\u00e1zela poka\u017ed\u00e9 men\u0161\u00ed. Zpochybn\u011bn\u00e1. S pocitem, \u017ee selh\u00e1v\u00e1m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nejt\u011b\u017e\u0161\u00ed bylo sly\u0161et, \u017ee je to moje vina. \u017de kdybych se v\u00edc sna\u017eila, kdybych byla disciplinovan\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, kdybych se tolik nesledovala, bylo by mi l\u00e9pe. Za\u010dala jsem jim v\u011b\u0159it. P\u0159estala jsem mluvit o bolesti. P\u0159estala jsem \u017e\u00e1dat o pomoc. Nau\u010dila jsem se fungovat navzdory sob\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jednoho dne jsem ale narazila na n\u011bkoho, kdo se d\u00edval jinak. Nechal m\u011b mluvit. Neopravoval m\u011b. Nezleh\u010doval. Polo\u017eil ot\u00e1zky, kter\u00e9 jsem sly\u0161ela poprv\u00e9. A kdy\u017e \u0159ekl, \u017ee to, co pro\u017e\u00edv\u00e1m, m\u00e1 skute\u010dn\u00e9 p\u0159\u00ed\u010diny, rozplakala jsem se. Ne \u00falevou. Smutkem za v\u0161echny ty roky, kdy jsem si myslela, \u017ee probl\u00e9m jsem j\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nebyl to z\u00e1zra\u010dn\u00fd obrat. L\u00e9\u010dba byla dlouh\u00e1, n\u00e1ro\u010dn\u00e1. Ale zm\u011bnilo se n\u011bco z\u00e1sadn\u00edho: p\u0159estala jsem se obvi\u0148ovat. Pochopila jsem, \u017ee d\u016fv\u011bra v autoritu nem\u00e1 znamenat ztr\u00e1tu vlastn\u00edho hlasu. \u017de ot\u00e1zky nejsou drzost. \u017de bolest nen\u00ed slabost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dnes u\u017e tu v\u011btu dok\u00e1\u017eu \u0159\u00edct nahlas. L\u00e9ka\u0159i m\u011b roky poni\u017eovali. Tvrdili, \u017ee je to moje vina. Ne\u0159\u00edk\u00e1m to ze zloby. \u0158\u00edk\u00e1m to proto, aby to nebyl konec p\u0159\u00edb\u011bhu, ale jeho p\u0159epis. Aby n\u011bkdo dal\u0161\u00ed, kdo odch\u00e1z\u00ed z ordinace se sta\u017een\u00fdm \u017ealudkem, v\u011bd\u011bl, \u017ee nen\u00ed s\u00e1m. A \u017ee m\u00e1 pr\u00e1vo b\u00fdt sly\u0161en.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Ta v\u011bta ve mn\u011b zr\u00e1la dlouho. Ne\u0159ekla jsem ji nahlas hned, proto\u017ee jsem se b\u00e1la, \u017ee bude zn\u00edt p\u0159ehnan\u011b, hystericky, \u017ee ji n\u011bkdo \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3367,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3366","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":244,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3366","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3366"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3366\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3368,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3366\/revisions\/3368"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3367"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3366"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3366"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3366"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}