{"id":3363,"date":"2026-01-02T21:10:29","date_gmt":"2026-01-02T21:10:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3363"},"modified":"2026-01-02T21:10:31","modified_gmt":"2026-01-02T21:10:31","slug":"stala-jsem-uprostred-pokoje-a-divala-se-na-to-co-zustalo-z-maminciny-lasky","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3363","title":{"rendered":"St\u00e1la jsem uprost\u0159ed pokoje a d\u00edvala se na to, co z\u016fstalo z mamin\u010diny l\u00e1sky."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Pokoj byl men\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e jsem si ho pamatovala. Mo\u017en\u00e1 se nezmen\u0161il on, ale j\u00e1 jsem vyrostla. Nebo se zm\u011bnilo ticho, kter\u00e9 v n\u011bm te\u010f vl\u00e1dlo. Nebylo pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9 \u2014 bylo pln\u00e9 v\u011bc\u00ed, kter\u00e9 u\u017e nikdo nepou\u017e\u00edv\u00e1, ale nikdo je ani nedok\u00e1\u017ee vyhodit. Ka\u017ed\u00fd p\u0159edm\u011bt tu m\u011bl sv\u016fj d\u016fvod. Ka\u017ed\u00fd byl stopou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Postel byla pe\u010dliv\u011b ustlan\u00e1, tak jak to d\u011blala v\u017edycky. Ne proto, \u017ee by \u010dekala n\u00e1v\u0161t\u011bvu, ale proto\u017ee v\u011b\u0159ila, \u017ee i oby\u010dejn\u00fd den si zaslou\u017e\u00ed \u0159\u00e1d. Na no\u010dn\u00edm stolku le\u017eela kniha roze\u010dten\u00e1 do poloviny, z\u00e1lo\u017eka pe\u010dliv\u011b srovnan\u00e1. Nikdy neoh\u00fdbala rohy. \u0158\u00edkala, \u017ee knihy si pamatuj\u00ed, jak se k nim chov\u00e1me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

P\u0159e\u0161la jsem k oknu a odhrnula z\u00e1clonu. Slunce dopadalo na komodu, kde st\u00e1ly drobnosti, kter\u00e9 by ciz\u00edmu \u010dlov\u011bku nic ne\u0159ekly. Hrnek s odloupnut\u00fdm okrajem. Star\u00e9 hodinky, kter\u00e9 u\u017e d\u00e1vno ne\u0161ly, ale ona je odm\u00edtala vyhodit. Fotografie, na kter\u00e9 se neusm\u00edvala do objektivu, ale na n\u011bkoho vedle n\u011bj. Na m\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Najednou mi do\u0161lo, \u017ee mamin\u010dina l\u00e1ska nebyla nikdy hlasit\u00e1. Nebyla ok\u00e1zal\u00e1. Nebyla pln\u00e1 velk\u00fdch slov. Byla v drobnostech. V tom, \u017ee v\u017edycky v\u011bd\u011bla, kde m\u00e1m odlo\u017een\u00fd svetr. V tom, \u017ee mi bez ptan\u00ed uva\u0159ila \u010daj p\u0159esn\u011b tehdy, kdy jsem ho pot\u0159ebovala. V tom, \u017ee poslouchala, i kdy\u017e jsem ml\u010dela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sedla jsem si na okraj postele a nechala prsty klouzat po p\u0159ehozu. Vzpomn\u011bla jsem si, kolikr\u00e1t tu sed\u011bla se mnou. Kolikr\u00e1t m\u011b ut\u011b\u0161ovala beze slov. Tehdy jsem si myslela, \u017ee takov\u00e9 chv\u00edle budou nav\u017edy. \u017de n\u011bkter\u00e9 v\u011bci se prost\u011b nem\u011bn\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Te\u010f jsem st\u00e1la uprost\u0159ed pokoje a d\u00edvala se na to, co z\u016fstalo. Nez\u016fstaly odpov\u011bdi na v\u0161echny ot\u00e1zky. Nez\u016fstaly rady pro ka\u017ed\u00fd dal\u0161\u00ed krok. Ale z\u016fstalo n\u011bco jin\u00e9ho. Klid. Pocit, \u017ee i kdy\u017e tu nen\u00ed, nejsem ztracen\u00e1. \u017de zp\u016fsob, jak\u00fdm m\u011b milovala, ve mn\u011b d\u00e1l \u017eije.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uv\u011bdomila jsem si, \u017ee l\u00e1ska se neztr\u00e1c\u00ed s \u010dlov\u011bkem. Jen zm\u011bn\u00ed podobu. P\u0159estane b\u00fdt hlasem a stane se vnit\u0159n\u00edm kompasem. P\u0159estane b\u00fdt dotekem a stane se jistotou. P\u0159estane b\u00fdt p\u0159\u00edtomnost\u00ed a stane se sou\u010d\u00e1st\u00ed toho, k\u00fdm jsme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kdy\u017e jsem odch\u00e1zela, pokoj z\u016fstal stejn\u00fd. Tich\u00fd. Uspo\u0159\u00e1dan\u00fd. Ale j\u00e1 u\u017e ho nevn\u00edmala jako m\u00edsto ztr\u00e1ty. Vid\u011bla jsem ho jako d\u016fkaz. D\u016fkaz, \u017ee mamin\u010dina l\u00e1ska nebyla k\u0159ehk\u00e1. Byla zako\u0159en\u011bn\u00e1 hluboko. A i kdy\u017e po n\u00ed z\u016fstaly jen v\u011bci a vzpom\u00ednky, jejich v\u00e1ha byla dost siln\u00e1, aby m\u011b nesla d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Pokoj byl men\u0161\u00ed, ne\u017e jsem si ho pamatovala. Mo\u017en\u00e1 se nezmen\u0161il on, ale j\u00e1 jsem vyrostla. Nebo se zm\u011bnilo ticho, kter\u00e9 v n\u011bm \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3364,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3363","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":366,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3363","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3363"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3363\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3365,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3363\/revisions\/3365"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3364"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3363"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3363"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3363"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}