{"id":3360,"date":"2026-01-02T20:06:34","date_gmt":"2026-01-02T20:06:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3360"},"modified":"2026-01-02T20:06:35","modified_gmt":"2026-01-02T20:06:35","slug":"obrazovka-telefonu-se-mi-trasla-v-ruce","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3360","title":{"rendered":"Obrazovka telefonu se mi t\u0159\u00e1sla v ruce."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

St\u00e1la jsem u okna a d\u00edvala se ven, ani\u017e bych skute\u010dn\u011b vn\u00edmala, co vid\u00edm. Sv\u011bt za sklem pokra\u010doval beze zm\u011bny \u2014 auta proj\u00ed\u017ed\u011bla, lid\u00e9 mluvili, sv\u011btla se rozsv\u011bcela. Jen u m\u011b se v\u0161echno zastavilo. Telefon vibroval nepatrn\u011b, ale v m\u00e9 dlani to p\u016fsobilo jako ot\u0159es. Jm\u00e9no na displeji jsem znala nazpam\u011b\u0165. P\u0159esto jsem m\u011bla pocit, \u017ee ho vid\u00edm poprv\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u010cekala jsem na tu zpr\u00e1vu cel\u00fd den a z\u00e1rove\u0148 jsem se j\u00ed b\u00e1la. Kdy\u017e kone\u010dn\u011b p\u0159i\u0161la, nebyla dlouh\u00e1. Jedna v\u011bta. Mo\u017en\u00e1 dv\u011b. Ale mezi p\u00edsmeny bylo tolik v\u00fdznam\u016f, \u017ee se mi rozmaz\u00e1valy p\u0159ed o\u010dima. Prsty se mi t\u0159\u00e1sly, jako by odm\u00edtaly p\u0159ijmout, \u017ee pr\u00e1v\u011b te\u010f se n\u011bco nevratn\u011b m\u011bn\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V hlav\u011b se mi spustil zn\u00e1m\u00fd koloto\u010d. Co jsem ud\u011blala \u0161patn\u011b? Kdy se to zlomilo? Mohla jsem \u0159\u00edct n\u011bco jinak, ml\u010det d\u00e9le, nebo naopak mluvit d\u0159\u00edv? Zpr\u00e1va byla klidn\u00e1, skoro zdvo\u0159il\u00e1. A pr\u00e1v\u011b to bolelo nejv\u00edc. Nebyl v n\u00ed hn\u011bv, kter\u00fd by \u0161el odm\u00edtnout. Bylo v n\u00ed rozhodnut\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sedla jsem si na parapet a op\u0159ela se o studen\u00e9 sklo. Telefon jsem po\u0159\u00e1d dr\u017eela v ruce, jako d\u016fkaz, \u017ee si to nevym\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm. Obrazovka se mi t\u0159\u00e1sla v ruce a j\u00e1 jsem si uv\u011bdomila, \u017ee se t\u0159esu cel\u00e1. Ne pl\u00e1\u010dem. Sp\u00ed\u0161 nap\u011bt\u00edm, kter\u00e9 kone\u010dn\u011b na\u0161lo cestu ven.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vzpom\u00ednky se mi vracely v \u00fatr\u017ec\u00edch. Rozhovory, kter\u00e9 skon\u010dily bez z\u00e1v\u011bru. Sm\u00edch, kter\u00fd u\u017e zn\u011bl jinak. Ticho, kter\u00e9 se postupn\u011b roz\u0161i\u0159ovalo, a\u017e zaplnilo v\u0161echno. Ta zpr\u00e1va nebyla za\u010d\u00e1tkem konce. Byla jen jeho pojmenov\u00e1n\u00edm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zhluboka jsem se nadechla. Ne proto, \u017ee by to hned pomohlo, ale proto\u017ee jsem to pot\u0159ebovala ud\u011blat. Poprv\u00e9 jsem si dovolila p\u0159ipustit, \u017ee odpov\u011b\u010f nemus\u00edm napsat hned. \u017de nemus\u00edm nic vysv\u011btlovat, obhajovat, zachra\u0148ovat. N\u011bkter\u00e9 v\u011bci se nedaj\u00ed opravit v\u011btou v chatu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Polo\u017eila jsem telefon na st\u016fl a nechala ho tam. Bez odpov\u011bdi. Obrazovka postupn\u011b zhasla. V m\u00edstnosti bylo ticho, kter\u00e9 u\u017e nep\u016fsobilo tak t\u011b\u017ece. Po\u0159\u00e1d to bolelo, ale bylo to snesiteln\u00e9. Jako kdy\u017e sund\u00e1te batoh, kter\u00fd jste dlouho nosili, a teprve pak si uv\u011bdom\u00edte, jak byl t\u011b\u017ek\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Obrazovka telefonu se mi t\u0159\u00e1sla v ruce. Ale ve chv\u00edli, kdy jsem ji pustila, se n\u011bco ve mn\u011b uklidnilo. Ne proto, \u017ee bych pochopila v\u0161echno. Ale proto, \u017ee jsem si kone\u010dn\u011b dovolila st\u00e1t na m\u00edst\u011b, kde nemus\u00edm hned v\u011bd\u011bt, co bude d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"St\u00e1la jsem u okna a d\u00edvala se ven, ani\u017e bych skute\u010dn\u011b vn\u00edmala, co vid\u00edm. Sv\u011bt za sklem pokra\u010doval beze zm\u011bny \u2014 auta proj\u00ed\u017ed\u011bla, \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3361,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3360","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":654,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3360","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3360"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3360\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3362,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3360\/revisions\/3362"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3361"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3360"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3360"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3360"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}