{"id":3318,"date":"2025-12-30T21:29:27","date_gmt":"2025-12-30T21:29:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3318"},"modified":"2025-12-30T21:29:28","modified_gmt":"2025-12-30T21:29:28","slug":"bezela-jsem-za-baxterem-aniz-bych-citila-chlad-nebo-bolest-v-nohach","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3318","title":{"rendered":"B\u011b\u017eela jsem za Baxterem, ani\u017e bych c\u00edtila chlad nebo bolest v noh\u00e1ch."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Sn\u00edh padal t\u011b\u017ece a ti\u0161e, jako by se cel\u00fd sv\u011bt rozhodl na chv\u00edli zadr\u017eet dech. Bylo u\u017e po setm\u011bn\u00ed a j\u00e1 si vy\u010d\u00edtala, \u017ee jsme se zdr\u017eeli d\u00e9le, ne\u017e bylo v pl\u00e1nu. Baxter b\u011b\u017eel p\u0159ede mnou po lesn\u00ed cest\u011b, jeho silueta se objevovala a mizela mezi stromy. Zavolala jsem na n\u011bj, jednou, dvakr\u00e1t. Neoto\u010dil se. V tom okam\u017eiku se mi st\u00e1hl \u017ealudek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"819\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-89.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3319\" srcset=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-89.png 819w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-89-240x300.png 240w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-89-768x960.png 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 819px) 100vw, 819px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Baxter nebyl jen pes. Byl se mnou od doby, kdy se n\u00e1\u0161 d\u016fm po rozvodu vypr\u00e1zdnil a ticho bylo hlasit\u011bj\u0161\u00ed ne\u017e h\u00e1dky, kter\u00e9 mu p\u0159edch\u00e1zely. Nau\u010dil se rozpoznat m\u00e9 n\u00e1lady d\u0159\u00edv, ne\u017e jsem je dok\u00e1zala pojmenovat sama. V\u011bd\u011bla jsem, \u017ee kdy\u017e se rozb\u011bhl pry\u010d, nebylo to z neposlu\u0161nosti. N\u011bco ho vyru\u0161ilo. N\u011bco ho vyd\u011bsilo nebo p\u0159it\u00e1hlo v\u00edc ne\u017e m\u016fj hlas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Najednou uklouzl. Sly\u0161ela jsem kr\u00e1tk\u00e9 zak\u0148u\u010den\u00ed a pak nic. Bez p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161len\u00ed jsem se rozb\u011bhla. Nevn\u00edmala jsem, \u017ee m\u00e1m jen tenk\u00e9 boty, \u017ee mi mr\u00e1z kou\u0161e do l\u00fdtek, \u017ee se mi dech l\u00e1me v plic\u00edch. Les kolem m\u011b byl rozmazan\u00fd, v\u011btve mi \u0161lehaly do rukou, ale j\u00e1 b\u011b\u017eela d\u00e1l. B\u011b\u017eela jsem za Baxterem, ani\u017e bych c\u00edtila chlad nebo bolest v noh\u00e1ch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>V hlav\u011b mi zn\u011bla jedin\u00e1 my\u0161lenka: nesm\u00edm ho ztratit. Ka\u017ed\u00fd krok byl poh\u00e1n\u011bn strachem, kter\u00fd p\u0159ehlu\u0161il v\u0161echno ostatn\u00ed. Vybavovaly se mi obrazy dn\u016f, kdy byl jedin\u00fdm d\u016fvodem, pro\u010d jsem r\u00e1no vstala z postele. Jak \u010dekal u dve\u0159\u00ed, kdy\u017e jsem se vracela unaven\u00e1 z pr\u00e1ce. Jak si ke mn\u011b lehal, kdy\u017e jsem nem\u011bla s\u00edlu mluvit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zastavila jsem se a\u017e u mal\u00e9ho sr\u00e1zu, kter\u00fd jsem si ve tm\u011b neuv\u011bdomila. Dole, mezi ke\u0159i, jsem usly\u0161ela jeho d\u00fdch\u00e1n\u00ed. Bylo rychl\u00e9, nepravideln\u00e9. Volala jsem na n\u011bj ti\u0161e, pak hlasit\u011bji. Kdy\u017e zvedl hlavu a na\u0161e o\u010di se setkaly, c\u00edtila jsem, jak se mi podlomila kolena. Byl vyd\u011b\u0161en\u00fd, ale \u017eiv\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Slezla jsem k n\u011bmu opatrn\u011b, kolena se mi t\u0159\u00e1sla, ruce jsem m\u011bla ztuhl\u00e9 zimou. A\u017e kdy\u017e jsem ho objala, uv\u011bdomila jsem si, \u017ee c\u00edt\u00edm bolest. \u017de m\u011b p\u00e1l\u00ed k\u016f\u017ee, \u017ee m\u00e1m \u0161kr\u00e1bance, \u017ee sotva stoj\u00edm. Ale v tu chv\u00edli to bylo jedno. Baxter se ke mn\u011b p\u0159itiskl a j\u00e1 v\u011bd\u011bla, \u017ee jsme to zvl\u00e1dli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Cesta zp\u00e1tky byla pomal\u00e1. Ka\u017ed\u00fd krok bolel, chlad se mi kone\u010dn\u011b dostal pod k\u016f\u017ei. Ale strach ustoupil a z\u016fstal jen zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed klid. Uv\u011bdomila jsem si, \u017ee v t\u011bch n\u011bkolika minut\u00e1ch b\u011bhu jsem objevila s\u00edlu, o kter\u00e9 jsem netu\u0161ila, \u017ee ji m\u00e1m. Ne proto, \u017ee bych byla state\u010dn\u00e1. Ale proto, \u017ee l\u00e1ska dok\u00e1\u017ee p\u0159ehlu\u0161it t\u011blo, rozum i \u00fanavu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kdy\u017e jsme se kone\u010dn\u011b dostali dom\u016f, Baxter usnul u krbu a j\u00e1 sed\u011bla vedle n\u011bj s dekou p\u0159es ramena. D\u00edvala jsem se na jeho klidn\u00fd dech a pochopila jsem, \u017ee n\u011bkdy ut\u00edk\u00e1me ne p\u0159ed bolest\u00ed, ale k tomu, co n\u00e1m d\u00e1v\u00e1 smysl. A \u017ee v t\u011bch chv\u00edl\u00edch dok\u00e1\u017eeme v\u00edc, ne\u017e si kdy mysl\u00edme.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Sn\u00edh padal t\u011b\u017ece a ti\u0161e, jako by se cel\u00fd sv\u011bt rozhodl na chv\u00edli zadr\u017eet dech. 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