{"id":3232,"date":"2025-12-25T13:24:33","date_gmt":"2025-12-25T13:24:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3232"},"modified":"2025-12-25T13:24:34","modified_gmt":"2025-12-25T13:24:34","slug":"sedla-jsem-si-protoze-nohy-mi-prestaly-slouzit-fotograf-se-zhluboka-nadechl-a-pomalu-otocil-prvni-fotografii-smerem-ke-mne","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3232","title":{"rendered":"Sedla jsem si, proto\u017ee nohy mi p\u0159estaly slou\u017eit. Fotograf se zhluboka nadechl a pomalu oto\u010dil prvn\u00ed fotografii sm\u011brem ke mn\u011b."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

\u017didle zask\u0159\u00edpala, kdy\u017e jsem se na ni spustila, a ten zvuk mi projel p\u00e1te\u0159\u00ed jako studen\u00fd prst. Ne\u010dekala jsem slabost, p\u0159i\u0161la bez varov\u00e1n\u00ed, jako kdy\u017e t\u011blo rozhodne d\u0159\u00edv ne\u017e hlava. M\u00edstnost byla sv\u011btl\u00e1, a\u017e nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u011b klidn\u00e1. B\u00edl\u00e9 st\u011bny, st\u016fl s hladkou deskou, na n\u011bm pe\u010dliv\u011b srovnan\u00e1 hrom\u00e1dka sn\u00edmk\u016f. Fotograf st\u00e1l naproti mn\u011b, ruce sepnut\u00e9, v\u00fdraz soust\u0159ed\u011bn\u00fd a v\u00e1\u017en\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Zhluboka se nadechl. Ten n\u00e1dech byl sly\u0161iteln\u00fd, skoro slavnostn\u00ed, jako by se chystal otev\u0159\u00edt dve\u0159e do ciz\u00edho pokoje. Pomalu oto\u010dil prvn\u00ed fotografii sm\u011brem ke mn\u011b. \u010cas se st\u00e1hl do \u00fazk\u00e9ho hrdla a j\u00e1 m\u011bla pocit, \u017ee j\u00edm budu muset proj\u00edt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Na sn\u00edmku nebylo nic k\u0159iklav\u00e9ho. \u017d\u00e1dn\u00e9 dramatick\u00e9 barvy, \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fd zjevn\u00fd p\u0159\u00edb\u011bh. A p\u0159esto m\u011b zas\u00e1hl. Byla v n\u011bm drobn\u00e1 nesrovnalost, detail, kter\u00fd nesed\u011bl k tomu, co jsem si o t\u00e9 chv\u00edli pamatovala. St\u00edn, kter\u00fd padal jinam, ne\u017e m\u011bl. Pohled, kter\u00fd byl odvr\u00e1cen\u00fd. Okam\u017eik zachycen\u00fd z \u00fahlu, z jak\u00e9ho se v\u011bci \u0159\u00edkaj\u00ed pravdiv\u011bji, ne\u017e bychom cht\u011bli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Polkla jsem. V krku se mi usadila suchost a ruce mi zt\u011b\u017ekly v kl\u00edn\u011b. Fotograf ml\u010del. D\u00e1val mi prostor, kter\u00fd byl z\u00e1rove\u0148 darem i zkou\u0161kou. V\u011bd\u011bla jsem, \u017ee nejde jen o obraz. Jde o to, co si s n\u00edm dovol\u00edm ud\u011blat. Jestli ho p\u0159ijmu, nebo se mu vyhnu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eTohle je za\u010d\u00e1tek,\u201c \u0159ekl ti\u0161e, jako by hlasem mohl sn\u00edmek zjemnit. P\u0159ik\u00fdvla jsem, ani\u017e bych si byla jist\u00e1, jestli souhlas\u00edm. V hlav\u011b se mi skl\u00e1daly \u00fatr\u017eky vzpom\u00ednek, kter\u00e9 do sebe n\u00e1hle zapadaly s nepohodlnou p\u0159esnost\u00ed. To, co jsem pova\u017eovala za n\u00e1hodu, z\u00edsk\u00e1valo tvar. To, co jsem p\u0159ehl\u00ed\u017eela, vystoupilo dop\u0159edu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kdy\u017e oto\u010dil dal\u0161\u00ed fotografii, u\u017e jsem byla p\u0159ipraven\u011bj\u0161\u00ed. Ne siln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, ale otev\u0159en\u011bj\u0161\u00ed. Uv\u011bdomila jsem si, \u017ee sed\u00edm ne proto, \u017ee bych byla slab\u00e1, ale proto, \u017ee je v po\u0159\u00e1dku se zastavit. Pod\u00edvat se. P\u0159iznat si, \u017ee n\u011bkter\u00e9 pravdy se l\u00e9pe sn\u00e1\u0161ej\u00ed vsed\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sn\u00edmky p\u0159ib\u00fdvaly a s nimi i ticho, kter\u00e9 nebylo pr\u00e1zdn\u00e9. Bylo pln\u00e9 v\u00fdznam\u016f, kter\u00e9 se pomalu usazovaly. Kdy\u017e jsme skon\u010dili, fotograf znovu se\u0159adil fotografie do \u00fahledn\u00e9 \u0159ady. J\u00e1 z\u016fstala sed\u011bt je\u0161t\u011b chv\u00edli. Nohy u\u017e by m\u011b mo\u017en\u00e1 unesly, ale j\u00e1 nesp\u011bchala.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vstala jsem a\u017e tehdy, kdy\u017e jsem v\u011bd\u011bla, \u017ee odch\u00e1z\u00edm s n\u011b\u010d\u00edm v\u00edc ne\u017e s obrazy. S v\u011bdom\u00edm, \u017ee pohled zven\u010d\u00ed m\u016f\u017ee bolet, ale tak\u00e9 pom\u00e1h\u00e1 zaost\u0159it. A \u017ee n\u011bkdy je nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed odvaha pr\u00e1v\u011b v tom, sednout si, d\u00edvat se a nezav\u0159\u00edt o\u010di.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"\u017didle zask\u0159\u00edpala, kdy\u017e jsem se na ni spustila, a ten zvuk mi projel p\u00e1te\u0159\u00ed jako studen\u00fd prst. Ne\u010dekala jsem slabost, p\u0159i\u0161la bez varov\u00e1n\u00ed, \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3233,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3232","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":979,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3232","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3232"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3232\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3234,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3232\/revisions\/3234"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3233"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3232"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3232"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3232"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}