{"id":3185,"date":"2025-12-21T12:29:01","date_gmt":"2025-12-21T12:29:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3185"},"modified":"2025-12-21T12:29:02","modified_gmt":"2025-12-21T12:29:02","slug":"pomalu-jsem-se-oprela-o-zed-a-rozhledla-se-po-byte-bylo-mi-slabo-jizva-po-operaci-pulzovala-bolesti-a-kazdy-krok-byl-utrpenim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/?p=3185","title":{"rendered":"Pomalu jsem se op\u0159ela o ze\u010f a rozhl\u00e9dla se po byt\u011b. Bylo mi slabo, jizva po operaci pulzovala bolest\u00ed a ka\u017ed\u00fd krok byl utrpen\u00edm."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Byt byl tich\u00fd, a\u017e nep\u0159irozen\u011b tich\u00fd, jako by se rozhodl m\u011b pozorovat. Sv\u011btlo z okna se l\u00e1malo o hrany n\u00e1bytku a kreslilo na podlaze nepravideln\u00e9 obrazce. V tom tichu jsem sly\u0161ela vlastn\u00ed dech, kr\u00e1tk\u00fd a opatrn\u00fd, jako bych se b\u00e1la, \u017ee i hlub\u0161\u00ed n\u00e1dech by mohl naru\u0161it k\u0159ehkou rovnov\u00e1hu, v n\u00ed\u017e jsem se sna\u017eila udr\u017eet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"827\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-64.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3186\" srcset=\"https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-64.png 827w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-64-242x300.png 242w, https:\/\/harcum.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/image-64-768x951.png 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 827px) 100vw, 827px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Op\u0159\u00edt se o ze\u010f bylo to jedin\u00e9 rozumn\u00e9 rozhodnut\u00ed. Chlad om\u00edtky mi pronikal do zad a na okam\u017eik p\u0159ehlu\u0161il teplo bolesti. Zav\u0159ela jsem o\u010di a po\u010d\u00edtala vte\u0159iny, ne\u017e se sv\u011bt p\u0159estane to\u010dit. L\u00e9ka\u0159 \u0159\u00edkal, \u017ee \u00fanava p\u0159ijde, \u017ee t\u011blo bude protestovat, a p\u0159esto jsem byla p\u0159ekvapen\u00e1, jak rychle se oby\u010dejn\u00e9 v\u011bci prom\u011bn\u00ed v p\u0159ek\u00e1\u017eky. St\u016fl byl najednou p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 daleko, \u017eidle p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 n\u00edzko, a kuchy\u0148 se zd\u00e1la b\u00fdt na jin\u00e9m kontinentu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ka\u017ed\u00fd krok m\u011bl sv\u016fj rytmus: zvednout nohu, nadechnout se, postavit chodidlo, vydechnout. Bolelo to, ale nebyla to jen bolest t\u011bla. Byla to i t\u00edha my\u0161lenek, kter\u00e9 se mi lepily na paty. P\u0159em\u00fd\u0161lela jsem o tom, jak jsem se sem dostala, o rozhodnut\u00edch, kter\u00e1 m\u011b dovedla a\u017e k operaci, a o tom, co v\u0161echno budu muset znovu nau\u010dit. Trp\u011blivost, \u0159\u00edkali. Slovo, kter\u00e9 zn\u00ed klidn\u011b, ale skr\u00fdv\u00e1 v sob\u011b dlouh\u00e9 hodiny \u010dek\u00e1n\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Na kuchy\u0148sk\u00e9 lince st\u00e1la sklenice s vodou, p\u0159ipraven\u00e1 od r\u00e1na. P\u0159ipadala mi jako mal\u00fd maj\u00e1k, oby\u010dejn\u00fd a p\u0159esto d\u016fle\u017eit\u00fd. Kdy\u017e jsem k n\u00ed kone\u010dn\u011b do\u0161la, ruka se mi t\u0159\u00e1sla. Voda byla studen\u00e1 a \u010dist\u00e1, a s ka\u017ed\u00fdm dou\u0161kem jsem c\u00edtila, jak se mi vrac\u00ed kousek s\u00edly. Ne mnoho, ale dost na to, abych se usm\u00e1la. I takov\u00e9 drobnosti se po\u010d\u00edtaj\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sedla jsem si a nechala pohled klouzat po m\u00edstnosti. Fotografie na poli\u010dce, kniha roze\u010dten\u00e1 u postele, rostlina, kter\u00e1 pot\u0159ebovala zal\u00edt. Sv\u011bt b\u011b\u017eel d\u00e1l, i kdy\u017e jsem se na chv\u00edli zastavila. Uv\u011bdomila jsem si, \u017ee to nen\u00ed z\u00e1vod. \u017de se nemus\u00edm vracet do tempa hned. \u017de byt, se sv\u00fdmi tich\u00fdmi kouty a zn\u00e1m\u00fdmi v\u016fn\u011bmi, m\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt na \u010das bezpe\u010dn\u00fdm p\u0159\u00edstavem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bolest v jizv\u011b se znovu ozvala, tentokr\u00e1t tlumen\u011bji. P\u0159ipom\u00ednka, \u017ee uzdravov\u00e1n\u00ed nen\u00ed p\u0159\u00edmka, ale klikat\u00e1 cesta. P\u0159esto jsem c\u00edtila n\u011bco jako nad\u011bji. Ne hlasitou a ok\u00e1zalou, sp\u00ed\u0161 tichou a vytrvalou. Byla v tom, \u017ee jsem do\u0161la ke stolu. V tom, \u017ee jsem se napila vody. V tom, \u017ee jsem si dovolila na chv\u00edli si sednout a jen b\u00fdt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Op\u0159ela jsem se zp\u00e1tky a zav\u0159ela o\u010di. Byt u\u017e nebyl ciz\u00ed ani hroziv\u00fd. Byl sv\u011bdkem m\u00e9 pomal\u00e9, opatrn\u00e9 cesty zp\u011bt k sob\u011b. A i kdy\u017e ka\u017ed\u00fd krok st\u00e1le bolel, v\u011bd\u011bla jsem, \u017ee dal\u0161\u00ed den ud\u011bl\u00e1m zase jeden. Mo\u017en\u00e1 kr\u00e1tk\u00fd, mo\u017en\u00e1 nejist\u00fd, ale m\u016fj.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Byt byl tich\u00fd, a\u017e nep\u0159irozen\u011b tich\u00fd, jako by se rozhodl m\u011b pozorovat. 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