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<\/figure>\n\n\n\nMal\u00e1 se zavrt\u011bla, vzdychla, otev\u0159ela o\u010dka a pohl\u00e9dla na svou velkou sestru, jako by ji poznala. A moje star\u0161\u00ed dcera, tehdy teprve p\u011btilet\u00e1, ztichla. Jen se na ni d\u00edvala, nos\u00e1nek trochu nakr\u010den\u00fd, rty pootev\u0159en\u00e9 \u00fa\u017easem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eMami,\u201c za\u0161eptala ti\u0161e. \u201eOna tak kr\u00e1sn\u011b von\u00ed.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Usm\u00e1la jsem se. Byla to ta \u010dist\u00e1 radost, kter\u00e1 v\u00e1s roztav\u00ed zevnit\u0159.
Jen\u017ee pak p\u0159i\u0161la ta v\u011bta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ta, kter\u00e1 m\u011b zastavila uprost\u0159ed pohybu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ta, kter\u00e1 m\u011bla nevinn\u00fd t\u00f3n, ale obsah, kter\u00fd mi zp\u016fsobil n\u00e1hl\u00fd chlad v z\u00e1dech.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eMami\u2026 a kdy ji zase vr\u00e1t\u00edme t\u011bm, co n\u00e1m ji p\u016fj\u010dili?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zamrzla jsem.
V m\u00edstnosti panovalo ticho tak hlubok\u00e9, \u017ee bylo sly\u0161et jen tich\u00e9 fun\u011bn\u00ed sp\u00edc\u00edho miminka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eCo\u2026 co mysl\u00ed\u0161?\u201c vypravila jsem ze sebe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dcera p\u0159ejela pohledem po sest\u0159i\u010dce, jako by kontrolovala jej\u00ed prst\u00edky, vl\u00e1sky, mal\u00fd nos\u00e1nek. \u00dapln\u011b v\u00e1\u017en\u011b, s d\u011btskou logikou, kter\u00e1 je n\u011bkdy krut\u011b up\u0159\u00edmn\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eNo\u2026 kdy\u017e si d\u011bti p\u016fj\u010dujeme v knihovn\u011b, tak je mus\u00edme vracet, ne?\u201c \u0159ekla naprosto klidn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Na okam\u017eik jsem nebyla schopn\u00e1 ani reagovat. V hlav\u011b mi v\u00ed\u0159ily v\u0161echny mo\u017en\u00e9 my\u0161lenky \u2014 jak dlouho si to mysl\u00ed? Mysl\u00ed si, \u017ee miminko nen\u00ed na\u0161e? \u017de odjde? \u017de ji n\u011bkdo odnese pry\u010d? Byla to sm\u011bs \u0161oku, sm\u00edchu, paniky a n\u011bhy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Posadila jsem se vedle n\u00ed, vzala ji kolem ramen a pol\u00edbila ji na hlavu.
\u201eZlato\u2026 miminka se nep\u016fj\u010duj\u00ed. Miminka se rod\u00ed. A tahle sest\u0159i\u010dka\u2026 ta je na\u0161e. Nav\u017edycky.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Moje dcera se zamra\u010dila, jako by to zpracov\u00e1vala.
\u201eNav\u017edycky?\u201c
\u201eAno,\u201c p\u0159ik\u00fdvla jsem. \u201eNikdo si ji nevezme. Nikomu ji nevr\u00e1t\u00edme.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chv\u00edli bylo ticho. A pak \u2014 ten nej\u0161ir\u0161\u00ed \u00fasm\u011bv sv\u011bta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eTak to je dob\u0159e,\u201c vydechla. \u201eProto\u017ee j\u00e1 ji miluju. A cht\u011bla jsem ji m\u00edt doma po\u0159\u00e1d.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A j\u00e1 jsem najednou c\u00edtila, jak se mi od hrudi zved\u00e1 v\u0161echno nap\u011bt\u00ed.
Sed\u011bla tam, mal\u00e1 hol\u010di\u010dka s novorozen\u011btem v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed, a najednou to cel\u00e9 d\u00e1valo smysl. Byla jen zmaten\u00e1, vyd\u011b\u0161en\u00e1, \u017ee o novou sest\u0159i\u010dku p\u0159ijde d\u0159\u00edv, ne\u017e si ji stihne u\u017e\u00edt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A z\u00e1rove\u0148 jsem si uv\u011bdomila, jak obrovskou odpov\u011bdnost d\u00edt\u011b vn\u00edm\u00e1 po sv\u00e9m \u2014 \u010dist\u011b, jednodu\u0161e, ale intenzivn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sledovala jsem jej\u00ed o\u010di, pln\u00e9 n\u011bhy a strachu i radosti, a pochopila jsem, \u017ee z n\u00ed bude skv\u011bl\u00e1 velk\u00e1 sestra.
Mo\u017en\u00e1 trochu popleten\u00e1.
Mo\u017en\u00e1 p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 v\u00e1\u017en\u00e1 na sv\u016fj v\u011bk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ale miluj\u00edc\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A ta v\u011bta, kter\u00e1 m\u011b nejd\u0159\u00edv vyd\u011bsila k smrti, se nakonec stala n\u011b\u010d\u00edm, co budu jednou vypr\u00e1v\u011bt ob\u011bma:
jako p\u0159\u00edb\u011bh o tom, jak siln\u011b od prvn\u00edho dne jedna sestra tou\u017eila, aby ta druh\u00e1 z\u016fstala nav\u017edy doma.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Sed\u011bla na gau\u010di, nohy sotva dos\u00e1hly k okraji, ruce m\u011bla nata\u017een\u00e9 a tv\u00e1\u0159 rozz\u00e1\u0159enou radost\u00ed, jakou dok\u00e1\u017eou m\u00edt jen mal\u00e9 d\u011bti. V o\u010d\u00edch \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3020,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3019","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-news"],"views":1100,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3019","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3019"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3019\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3021,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3019\/revisions\/3021"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3020"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3019"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3019"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harcum.am\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3019"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}